Seoul~~

More to offer, More to explore, More to see, more to play and I just aniticipating and get exciting everyday.

Ayam Kambing Bag~~~

I'm coming home~ coming home~ tell the world I'm coming~~~~~~ HOME!!!

Nolstagic

I logged in to Friendster after so many years. Wow, I was laughing all the way when I was reading all the testi. Suddenly, all those memories came back like "I wrote a testi for you, you write for me okay?"

All the pictures just gave me a gossebumps when I went through it. Hahaha.... those were the times before Facebook.
I looked so different 5 years ago. I was thin back then. Ah, how nice it was when I was young and naive. Now, one more year, I am going to step into the real adult life and start working. Start to think about my career, my life and family.

Wanna have a glimpse of how I look when I was 18/19? Here is it...


When I was 18. ON my birthday with Bell.






When I was 18++. Meeting with Jing En.







When I stepped into 19. Went to college.




When I was 19. Farewell trip with Lu.



When I was 19++. End of Sem dinner with Glenna.






When I was 20 years old. I was already in London, UK meeting with Renee.



Hahaha.... I looked different do I?

Review

昨晚上网看了 ’婚前试爱‘。 最后要在ending之前， 女主角陈述了一句所谓电影里面的名句
”你爱他 就要先hurt他.因为内疚系维系爱情噶最好方法“

我听了之后第一个反应是 ”什么烂东西？“
然后再听了一下。。。。再想一想也许这就是 ”爱情“。

我不知道给爱人背叛是什么感觉。。。更不知道什么是”爱情“。所以其实我没有什么资格去评论任何东西。因为都不懂。但就是发表自己的电影感想而已。看了这电影，我相信这种事真的会发生。
现代人真的缺乏安全感，又不给别人安全感。。。信任常挂在嘴边， 但多少人能的确的做到？？
被信任和去信任都不是一件容易的事。有时侯明明很爱对方却表现的不在乎。有时侯不爱对方了， 因为在一起太久爱情也会变感情而感情又会变人情，给少了不好意思，给多了又觉得不值。 （也是电影的对白）

人真是复杂的动物。。。是多愁善感。矛盾，自私，失控，无理取闹等等症状会在爱情里出现。

而我。。。还没有这个心里准备变成那样的人。
虽然一个人有时侯会寂寞。。但是， 我很享受现在的单身生活：）
我会渴望， 不会排除。
不会追求，只会珍惜。



Happy Easter Day ：）

Me and the quiet night~

It's 0209.... quiet night with the companion of Miles Davies' Blue Jazz.


Ah.... I want a glass of Rose now~~:)

Yes, I abandoned the blog again.

Well, as usual I left my blog to ferment. Just to find time to update me blog is not easy.
So where should I start? the day after Valentine's day?
Be prepared is not something very interesting.
As my mom used to say,'your life in UK is so boring, nothing much right?'
I think I should make it more lively then.

In this 5 weeks, I went to meet my uncle in London to get my stuff from mummy.
Got loads of food :) and get to meet my London friends and talk non stop as usual. Cannot believe some of them are going to graduate. I will miss them so much.






After London trip, was so busy preparing for Exeter Amazing Race. Well, Lu will know this cuz I was so bored waiting at the final pitstop and I called her to chit chat. Hahahhahaha..... But that was a good success.




Things come one after another. The Asian Night is just next week. From this event, I have learned a lot. People are really realistic. If you are not good enough, please prepare to get criticisms and bad attitude from others. Mom was right. Don't blame people for treating you unwell because you are just not good enough for the job.


Then all the way to Cork, Ireland to find my Kat Kat.It feels great to meet her in different place. Never think that we could meet up on her 21st birthday. It was a brilliant trip.


Last but not least, the Spring dinner and that signified the end of my presidency.

Now, I am no longer Exeter Malaysian Society President. In fact, I have a new identity. I am now Exeter International Student Council Publicity Officer.
More work, more commitment to face. One more week to end my second year. Make it count!!!

Happy Single Ladies Valentine Night

I love my girls~~~

Lyrics from Leighton Meester from Country Strong OST,


"Who need a boyfriend, I got my girlfriends :)"

Happy Chinese New Year

Is the first day of Chinese New Year and I am spending this wonderful day in the library and being unproductive :p



Everyone, have a pleasant year ahead!

ShitHole....

It is a common agreement between my friends that they agreed that Exeter is a shithole but not me. I always wondering why they like to compare Exeter to London, Birmingham, Manchester etc?
As an international student, the reason I come to study in the UK is due to it's world recognition education and also culture exchange. I do not come here for 'holiday'. I do not choose due to the popularity of the city football team. I choose Exeter because it is very English, very country-side and no high rise building. I like the campus life here where I walk to uni everyday.
My friends complained how bad Exeter is, despite they themselves studying here, isn't it funny?
if you do not like the place, leave! or don't even bother to come over at the first place. Yes, you said Warwick rejected you or UCL rejected you and that's why you ended up in Exeter. Excuse me, bare in mind, they rejected you because you are not good enough for them. You should blame yourself but not to blame at the University that you are attending. In fact, you should be grateful for them accepting. Always complaining there is nothing is Exeter, what do you want actually?
Yes, there are no branded LV, and gucci stores. But, there are other high street brands which are ample for students. Apple store, M&S, Tesco, Zara, TopShop, etc are all available. There's even a strip-club!
I personally think that that students here should stop complaining for what Exeter uni and city got to offer. If you really hate it, please piss off and if you are unable to do so, just shut up and appreciate what you've got.

I love Exeter, it is definitely not a shithole. For those backhome who doesn't know where is Exeter, please Google it.

A visit from a friend

Had an awesome afternoon with Glenna. I realised that we literately talks about everything. Marriage, work, movies and BBC.

Thanks for dropping by :) It's so sweet of you.

Back to basics

Read, the only way to ultimate knowledge. This year, I want to read as many as I can :)

Wasted

Just read Bell's blog and found out this guy commit suicide for a girl?
Well, I do not think it as romantic and what other's think rather I think it as an extremely irresponsible act.
I might have no rights to comment on anything or I may not understand what's love and stuff but leaving your parents, family and friends behind???


Condolences to the family.

It's almost 2 months

Well, I think I have the busiest 2 months in my life. New term started and everything is piling up. Besides the usual assignments and group work, I am now traveling a lot.
Since becoming the president of Malaysian society in my uni, I have been networking a lot. Anyway, I am loving my busy life!!

Glad to meet some awesome people nowadays, also had a great time participating he IBM business challenge which I learned a lot from this competition. 2 more rounds to go and I hope that we can at least make it to semi-finals and Citibank-Canary Wharf, here we go!!!!

what is it?

Finally, I went back to the UK. Moving into a new house, new room and new housemates.
Lectures are starting next week and I am getting excited for the new start. Everything is almost settled and everything went absolutely fine.
Mom will be done with her chemo in 2 weeks time and then she will be healthy and live life to fullest.

everything seems so fine and yet why I still feel there is something bothering me....







what is it?......

Writen during emo time~(forget how long was it)

Sometimes I just wish my life can be so much more difficult. Then, it will let me learnt to be more independent and to be more appreciate the things that I have right now.At the age of 22, I can say that I haven’t been through hardship. Things have been easy for me all these time and caused me not to strike hard for anything. I am so regret for what I have done. I really wish there is a time machine, I will turn back into time where I will drop off all unneccassary stuffs and to do the right thing.

As a student, I did not fullfill my job because I take things too easy. I did not pay full attention in class and did not study hard enough to meet the grades that I should have. I did not humble enough to ask questions. I did not willing to learn and most of all I am not hardworking at all to study.

As a daughter, I was not caring enough to my family. I was too naïve to believe that things will lead the way as time goes by. I was not strong enough to face all the problems that happen in the family. I was disobedient to my elders. I was ignorant to household things.

As a sister, I was not a good example to my brother. I was too strict towards him. I was a big bullier and did not care how my brother progression in life and studies. I was too selfish to my brother and only know how to make use of him.

As a friend, I was not as sincere. Some friends , I did not even take the initiative to contact them. I found I was too fake. I am good at making friends but not good at maintaining relationships.

I guess I am nothing afterall. BUT, I will change. From this moment, I want to be a better person, a better daughter, sister, student and friend. I know it is not going to be easy, but I will do my very very best. I am not satisfied with what I am now, character and personality wise.Give me sometime, I want to be a better person!

p/s: I must be very down at the time I wrote this post....

Hi Blog,

Hello feelings, sorry to abandon you for such a long time.
I have been busy... like seriously. Another more acceptable excuse is that I am very lazy to tell you my life.
In short, I am doing just fine. Mom finally going to chemotherapy, I guess I have to leave you for sometime again.

Meanwhile, I will continue to live life to fullest!

该怎么去爱？

这个问题缠绕了近4年了吧。。。

打从18岁就开始想谈恋爱。。。直到现在还是单身。
这并不是坏事只是我担心我不会去爱。。。
朋友们爱得轰轰烈烈。。。到分手瓶颈的时候却痛斥心扉。 这也是让我迟迟都不敢开始任何一段感情。当然， 这不是最重要的因素 只不过我还没有心里准备去接受会面临的种种问题。
我很想不顾一切，干干脆脆那样，可是我做不到。。。
朋友说我想太多， 的确是， 我想很多。。I can't help it!

真正了解我的人不多。。。


最近几位姐妹在感情上出现问题。。。真的让我心痛～
也让我真正的在思考。。。该怎么去爱～～～

It's not an ordinary night tonight. Things just happened not the way I have ever expected it. Tears keep running down my both cheeks and I have no control of stopping it.
I don't know whether this is the right path or not. But at least I know it is not the correct path to walk. My heart is aching, really aching in pain in fact and I cannot even dare to imagine how they feel. It must be million times more than I do.
Well, at least things are cleared. But I certainly hope that things happen in exchange of something better. Maybe is later, but I am sure it will come. I do have faith.
I really feel heartbroken.... honestly. But, I will stay strong because I have faith. I believe things happen for a reason and change for a reason. Hopefully the incident will teach us a lesson. As he said, it will leave a scar in our heart to remind ourselves. I do not want this scar. I do not.... Not at all......

Tonight will be another sleepless night with tears' companion.

Mission Accomplished!

As most of you aware of, I went home without letting my family knows, and yes, I did managed to suprise my parents and my mom almost cry!



Let me brieftly tell you the story. It goes like this.

I wanted to celebrate my birthday with my parents this year. So, I decided to come back earlier.
And the naughty idea of surprising them came into my mine! Hence, to start the mission, I need a assistant who is my brother hahaha....I sent him a facebook inbox to let him know that I need his help to fetch me from the bus station. He was totally into the mission and we keep in contact to make sure it is a success. It is not easy because our house have the alarm system and also the gate is freaking loud when you open it! Also, not forgetting the Metro secrurity that petroling during the night!
The plan will not success if my maid forget to unlock the glass door and Bingo!!!! she really forget to unlock!

Well, my brother told my parents that he had to go to school for a stay over camp. Then, he went to Old town to sit and waited for me for 3 hours! Later, when we reached home, we left the car outside then CLIMBED into my house!!! Later, when we found out my maid forget to unlock the glass door, we phoned the house and luckily we only woke up my maid and not my parents.
So far so good right?

Then, I slept in my brother's room and waited for morning to wake my parents up.
Guess what? while we were sleeping, my mom said: " Boy, I cannot contact you sister, I tried to call her a lot of times but she did not answer...." But, my brother just act like nothing.
I suddenly feel so bad and I went out and I shocked my father and mother!!!
hahahhaha......

My mom told me her feelings was angry+shocked+happy+confused.
She told me if she cannot find me, she will start calling my friends to find me and RenEe will be the first person to contact and when she gets me she is gonna scold me thoroughly!!
But, when she saw me all anger gone!!! hahahahahhahahhahahahahahahaha!!!! Lucky me!!!!

And now, she told everyone this story whenever she sees anyone. I am now labelled as the "naughty girl". Well, you can say I am naughty but I do not really think so. hehehe.... this is the spice of life! Certainly, I do not consider surprising my parents is something naughty.......Everything is fine if my mom slept through the night instead of looking me! Hey, I saved a lot of time and money for my parents since they did not need to travel all the way to KL and return!


Anyway, I am still happy that the mission is accomplished!!!! hehehe....

There will be a next time, trust me! *evil grin*

Post exam~

Finally finishing another year of University. Today was my last paper, and I am all done!
Post exam programme? Nothing much, I am going to start my movie marathon.
Tomorrow, I am going to the beach! Hopefully, I will have a great day.
I don't know why. After exam got an "emptiness" feeling~

Human being, always have complicated emotions. haiz~