Feel the feelings

5 Months

2011-11-23T10:03:00.000-08:00

5 months ago, I was in Seoul, Korea and now I am in Exeter , UK.

Things have not been going the way that I want it to be. I know I have been avoiding it all the time. I really need a push to make me at least the first move. I don't know when I can escape all from this. I do not know why, I think the self-esteem problem happen again.

I hope I will able to adjust to what I hope I will be quickly cuz I dunno how long I can stand.

Seoul~~

2011-06-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

More to offer, More to explore, More to see, more to play and I just aniticipating and get exciting everyday.

Ayam Kambing Bag~~~

2011-06-08T03:31:00.000-07:00

I'm coming home~ coming home~ tell the world I'm coming~~~~~~ HOME!!!

Nolstagic

2011-05-14T17:43:00.000-07:00

I logged in to Friendster after so many years. Wow, I was laughing all the way when I was reading all the testi. Suddenly, all those memories came back like "I wrote a testi for you, you write for me okay?"

All the pictures just gave me a gossebumps when I went through it. Hahaha.... those were the times before Facebook.
I looked so different 5 years ago. I was thin back then. Ah, how nice it was when I was young and naive. Now, one more year, I am going to step into the real adult life and start working. Start to think about my career, my life and family.

Wanna have a glimpse of how I look when I was 18/19? Here is it...

When I was 18. ON my birthday with Bell.

When I was 18++. Meeting with Jing En.

When I stepped into 19. Went to college.

When I was 19. Farewell trip with Lu.

When I was 19++. End of Sem dinner with Glenna.

When I was 20 years old. I was already in London, UK meeting with Renee.

Hahaha.... I looked different do I?

Review

2011-04-22T12:14:00.000-07:00

昨晚上网看了 ’婚前试爱‘。最后要在ending之前，女主角陈述了一句所谓电影里面的名句
”你爱他就要先hurt他.因为内疚系维系爱情噶最好方法“

我听了之后第一个反应是 ”什么烂东西？“
然后再听了一下。。。。再想一想也许这就是 ”爱情“。

我不知道给爱人背叛是什么感觉。。。更不知道什么是”爱情“。所以其实我没有什么资格去评论任何东西。因为都不懂。但就是发表自己的电影感想而已。看了这电影，我相信这种事真的会发生。
现代人真的缺乏安全感，又不给别人安全感。。。信任常挂在嘴边，但多少人能的确的做到？？
被信任和去信任都不是一件容易的事。有时侯明明很爱对方却表现的不在乎。有时侯不爱对方了，因为在一起太久爱情也会变感情而感情又会变人情，给少了不好意思，给多了又觉得不值。（也是电影的对白）

人真是复杂的动物。。。是多愁善感。矛盾，自私，失控，无理取闹等等症状会在爱情里出现。

而我。。。还没有这个心里准备变成那样的人。
虽然一个人有时侯会寂寞。。但是，我很享受现在的单身生活：）
我会渴望，不会排除。
不会追求，只会珍惜。

Happy Easter Day ：）

Me and the quiet night~

2011-04-16T18:09:00.000-07:00

It's 0209.... quiet night with the companion of Miles Davies' Blue Jazz.

Ah.... I want a glass of Rose now~~:)

Yes, I abandoned the blog again.

2011-03-26T05:30:00.000-07:00

Well, as usual I left my blog to ferment. Just to find time to update me blog is not easy.
So where should I start? the day after Valentine's day?
Be prepared is not something very interesting.
As my mom used to say,'your life in UK is so boring, nothing much right?'
I think I should make it more lively then.

In this 5 weeks, I went to meet my uncle in London to get my stuff from mummy.
Got loads of food :) and get to meet my London friends and talk non stop as usual. Cannot believe some of them are going to graduate. I will miss them so much.

After London trip, was so busy preparing for Exeter Amazing Race. Well, Lu will know this cuz I was so bored waiting at the final pitstop and I called her to chit chat. Hahahhahaha..... But that was a good success.

Things come one after another. The Asian Night is just next week. From this event, I have learned a lot. People are really realistic. If you are not good enough, please prepare to get criticisms and bad attitude from others. Mom was right. Don't blame people for treating you unwell because you are just not good enough for the job.

Then all the way to Cork, Ireland to find my Kat Kat.It feels great to meet her in different place. Never think that we could meet up on her 21st birthday. It was a brilliant trip.

Last but not least, the Spring dinner and that signified the end of my presidency.

Now, I am no longer Exeter Malaysian Society President. In fact, I have a new identity. I am now Exeter International Student Council Publicity Officer.
More work, more commitment to face. One more week to end my second year. Make it count!!!

Happy Single Ladies Valentine Night

2011-02-12T07:22:00.000-08:00

I love my girls~~~

Lyrics from Leighton Meester from Country Strong OST,

"Who need a boyfriend, I got my girlfriends :)"

Happy Chinese New Year

2011-02-03T09:48:00.000-08:00

Is the first day of Chinese New Year and I am spending this wonderful day in the library and being unproductive :p

Everyone, have a pleasant year ahead!

ShitHole....

2011-01-29T12:34:00.000-08:00

It is a common agreement between my friends that they agreed that Exeter is a shithole but not me. I always wondering why they like to compare Exeter to London, Birmingham, Manchester etc?
As an international student, the reason I come to study in the UK is due to it's world recognition education and also culture exchange. I do not come here for 'holiday'. I do not choose due to the popularity of the city football team. I choose Exeter because it is very English, very country-side and no high rise building. I like the campus life here where I walk to uni everyday.
My friends complained how bad Exeter is, despite they themselves studying here, isn't it funny?
if you do not like the place, leave! or don't even bother to come over at the first place. Yes, you said Warwick rejected you or UCL rejected you and that's why you ended up in Exeter. Excuse me, bare in mind, they rejected you because you are not good enough for them. You should blame yourself but not to blame at the University that you are attending. In fact, you should be grateful for them accepting. Always complaining there is nothing is Exeter, what do you want actually?
Yes, there are no branded LV, and gucci stores. But, there are other high street brands which are ample for students. Apple store, M&S, Tesco, Zara, TopShop, etc are all available. There's even a strip-club!
I personally think that that students here should stop complaining for what Exeter uni and city got to offer. If you really hate it, please piss off and if you are unable to do so, just shut up and appreciate what you've got.

I love Exeter, it is definitely not a shithole. For those backhome who doesn't know where is Exeter, please Google it.

A visit from a friend

2011-01-22T15:26:00.000-08:00

Had an awesome afternoon with Glenna. I realised that we literately talks about everything. Marriage, work, movies and BBC.

Thanks for dropping by :) It's so sweet of you.

Back to basics

2011-01-19T12:51:00.000-08:00

Read, the only way to ultimate knowledge. This year, I want to read as many as I can :)

Wasted

2010-12-13T11:13:00.001-08:00

Just read Bell's blog and found out this guy commit suicide for a girl?
Well, I do not think it as romantic and what other's think rather I think it as an extremely irresponsible act.
I might have no rights to comment on anything or I may not understand what's love and stuff but leaving your parents, family and friends behind???

Condolences to the family.

It's almost 2 months

2010-11-25T03:45:00.000-08:00

Well, I think I have the busiest 2 months in my life. New term started and everything is piling up. Besides the usual assignments and group work, I am now traveling a lot.
Since becoming the president of Malaysian society in my uni, I have been networking a lot. Anyway, I am loving my busy life!!

Glad to meet some awesome people nowadays, also had a great time participating he IBM business challenge which I learned a lot from this competition. 2 more rounds to go and I hope that we can at least make it to semi-finals and Citibank-Canary Wharf, here we go!!!!

what is it?

2010-09-30T23:44:00.000-07:00

Finally, I went back to the UK. Moving into a new house, new room and new housemates.
Lectures are starting next week and I am getting excited for the new start. Everything is almost settled and everything went absolutely fine.
Mom will be done with her chemo in 2 weeks time and then she will be healthy and live life to fullest.

everything seems so fine and yet why I still feel there is something bothering me....

what is it?......

Writen during emo time~(forget how long was it)

2010-08-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I just wish my life can be so much more difficult. Then, it will let me learnt to be more independent and to be more appreciate the things that I have right now.At the age of 22, I can say that I haven’t been through hardship. Things have been easy for me all these time and caused me not to strike hard for anything. I am so regret for what I have done. I really wish there is a time machine, I will turn back into time where I will drop off all unneccassary stuffs and to do the right thing.

As a student, I did not fullfill my job because I take things too easy. I did not pay full attention in class and did not study hard enough to meet the grades that I should have. I did not humble enough to ask questions. I did not willing to learn and most of all I am not hardworking at all to study.

As a daughter, I was not caring enough to my family. I was too naïve to believe that things will lead the way as time goes by. I was not strong enough to face all the problems that happen in the family. I was disobedient to my elders. I was ignorant to household things.

As a sister, I was not a good example to my brother. I was too strict towards him. I was a big bullier and did not care how my brother progression in life and studies. I was too selfish to my brother and only know how to make use of him.

As a friend, I was not as sincere. Some friends , I did not even take the initiative to contact them. I found I was too fake. I am good at making friends but not good at maintaining relationships.

I guess I am nothing afterall. BUT, I will change. From this moment, I want to be a better person, a better daughter, sister, student and friend. I know it is not going to be easy, but I will do my very very best. I am not satisfied with what I am now, character and personality wise.Give me sometime, I want to be a better person!

p/s: I must be very down at the time I wrote this post....

Hi Blog,

2010-08-12T03:04:00.000-07:00

Hello feelings, sorry to abandon you for such a long time.
I have been busy... like seriously. Another more acceptable excuse is that I am very lazy to tell you my life.
In short, I am doing just fine. Mom finally going to chemotherapy, I guess I have to leave you for sometime again.

Meanwhile, I will continue to live life to fullest!

该怎么去爱？

2010-07-04T21:26:00.000-07:00

这个问题缠绕了近4年了吧。。。

打从18岁就开始想谈恋爱。。。直到现在还是单身。
这并不是坏事只是我担心我不会去爱。。。
朋友们爱得轰轰烈烈。。。到分手瓶颈的时候却痛斥心扉。这也是让我迟迟都不敢开始任何一段感情。当然，这不是最重要的因素只不过我还没有心里准备去接受会面临的种种问题。
我很想不顾一切，干干脆脆那样，可是我做不到。。。
朋友说我想太多，的确是，我想很多。。I can't help it!

真正了解我的人不多。。。

最近几位姐妹在感情上出现问题。。。真的让我心痛～
也让我真正的在思考。。。该怎么去爱～～～

2010-06-18T08:10:00.001-07:00

It's not an ordinary night tonight. Things just happened not the way I have ever expected it. Tears keep running down my both cheeks and I have no control of stopping it.
I don't know whether this is the right path or not. But at least I know it is not the correct path to walk. My heart is aching, really aching in pain in fact and I cannot even dare to imagine how they feel. It must be million times more than I do.
Well, at least things are cleared. But I certainly hope that things happen in exchange of something better. Maybe is later, but I am sure it will come. I do have faith.
I really feel heartbroken.... honestly. But, I will stay strong because I have faith. I believe things happen for a reason and change for a reason. Hopefully the incident will teach us a lesson. As he said, it will leave a scar in our heart to remind ourselves. I do not want this scar. I do not.... Not at all......

Tonight will be another sleepless night with tears' companion.

Mission Accomplished!

2010-06-10T00:02:00.000-07:00

As most of you aware of, I went home without letting my family knows, and yes, I did managed to suprise my parents and my mom almost cry!

Let me brieftly tell you the story. It goes like this.

I wanted to celebrate my birthday with my parents this year. So, I decided to come back earlier.
And the naughty idea of surprising them came into my mine! Hence, to start the mission, I need a assistant who is my brother hahaha....I sent him a facebook inbox to let him know that I need his help to fetch me from the bus station. He was totally into the mission and we keep in contact to make sure it is a success. It is not easy because our house have the alarm system and also the gate is freaking loud when you open it! Also, not forgetting the Metro secrurity that petroling during the night!
The plan will not success if my maid forget to unlock the glass door and Bingo!!!! she really forget to unlock!

Well, my brother told my parents that he had to go to school for a stay over camp. Then, he went to Old town to sit and waited for me for 3 hours! Later, when we reached home, we left the car outside then CLIMBED into my house!!! Later, when we found out my maid forget to unlock the glass door, we phoned the house and luckily we only woke up my maid and not my parents.
So far so good right?

Then, I slept in my brother's room and waited for morning to wake my parents up.
Guess what? while we were sleeping, my mom said: " Boy, I cannot contact you sister, I tried to call her a lot of times but she did not answer...." But, my brother just act like nothing.
I suddenly feel so bad and I went out and I shocked my father and mother!!!
hahahhaha......

My mom told me her feelings was angry+shocked+happy+confused.
She told me if she cannot find me, she will start calling my friends to find me and RenEe will be the first person to contact and when she gets me she is gonna scold me thoroughly!!
But, when she saw me all anger gone!!! hahahahahhahahhahahahahahahaha!!!! Lucky me!!!!

And now, she told everyone this story whenever she sees anyone. I am now labelled as the "naughty girl". Well, you can say I am naughty but I do not really think so. hehehe.... this is the spice of life! Certainly, I do not consider surprising my parents is something naughty.......Everything is fine if my mom slept through the night instead of looking me! Hey, I saved a lot of time and money for my parents since they did not need to travel all the way to KL and return!

Anyway, I am still happy that the mission is accomplished!!!! hehehe....

There will be a next time, trust me! *evil grin*

Post exam~

2010-05-25T16:34:00.000-07:00

Finally finishing another year of University. Today was my last paper, and I am all done!
Post exam programme? Nothing much, I am going to start my movie marathon.
Tomorrow, I am going to the beach! Hopefully, I will have a great day.
I don't know why. After exam got an "emptiness" feeling~

Human being, always have complicated emotions. haiz~

Being

2010-05-19T19:43:00.000-07:00

Being.....
with an object is to care for it, to have concern for it... producing something, attending to something and looking after it, making use of something, giving up something and letting. Hugo, undertaking, discussing determining, accomplishing, interrogating, considering.... all of these are ways of BEING.

I am a human being......

Guys are visual animal

2010-05-08T12:00:00.000-07:00

Boy: "For us, if we find a girlfriend, we do not care about how they look. The most important part is inside. The heart and personality are the most crucial of all. So, you girls no need to worry about your looks because a guy will like your inner beauty more."

Me: " Really? So you don't mind how your girlfriend looks like right?"

Boy: "Of course no. As I said, inner more important."

Me: "So.... tell me your type. What type of girls you like?"

Boy: "Erm....... I like girls with long hair. Preferably fair. Cannot be too fat or too thin. Must shorter than me and must be very feminine."

Me: "You go to die la!" -.-'

Updates about Istanbul!

2010-05-01T06:56:00.000-07:00

Came back 3 days ago from Istanbul. It was a short but awesome trip. Solehah and me were crazy all the time during the trip. Our plane time was early 6.30am. Therefore we need to go to the airport the night before. Basically, we slept over at the airport and stayed there for more than 7 hours before departure!
This trip, besides sightseeing, we meet a lot of important people but we had no idea who are they. When we were at London Gatwick, someone from the middle eastern country came to visit London. There were a lot of securities, policemen and reporters.

After 3 hours 20 mins, we finally arrived Istanbul. As you know low cost airline do not go to major airport, so we landed at Istanbul-Sabiha Gokchen airport which is located at the Asia side of Turkey. We had to take approx. 45 min bus to the main town of Istanbul. It was not that bad, like sight seeing. The view of the Bosphorus was magnificent!!!
Traffic in Istanbul city is crazy. The drivers are very rough. Even the traffic light showed that is green light for the pedestrian, drivers did not care but continue to drive their way. Soleha was very paranoid about road-crossing. The sound of horn are everywhere and every second. *scary*

Later, we found the way to our hostel. It was quite complicated. We have to take underground. Then take tram to cross the Golden Horn Strait to the other side of Istanbul. The old side of the Istanbul. Taking about the Tram. I was stuck in the Tram while Solehah was already get out of the tram. I was so afraid! hahah... luckily some guy opened the door for me. Then, we walked our to find our hostel. GOSH~~ our hostel have no main entrance. It was above a carpet shop. We were so afraid. There was this guy claimed that he worked at the hostel and showed us the way to the hostel. We walked into the carpet shop, walked almost the back of the shop and went up to the stairs. We came to the elevator. The elevator was the old fashion type where you have to open the door yourself. The reception was on the top floor of the building with a very very simple table and a computer but the view was really nice. We able to see the straits.

Overall in the trip, I learned more about religion. As Solehah will tell the history and the differences between each religion. Too bad that most of the places, we are not allowed to take any pictures, if not it would be so nice to share some really jaw-dropping moments with you guys. Oh yeah! The policemen there are handsome. Really Handsome and fit. They look like model. Not kidding. Their police uniform are like those F1 motor racing. Tall, Fit and good looking!!!

2 more weeks to final exam and then I will be back to Malaysia!!! WOOHOO!!!!!

New stuffs

2010-04-23T16:24:00.000-07:00

My mom came to visit me last week in the UK. She brought me loads of new stuffs. Just want to share with you guys!! Hahhaha.... I am the luckiest and the most Haengbok person in the world!

Just to refresh your memory. My parents bought me a Tiffany key necklace for me 21 birthday. This year, my mom bought me a love pendant from Tiffany& Co. as well.... Hahha... that makes a match.woohoo~~

Next, my mom brought me a watch from Switzerland. Although it is not my first Swatch but it is the first watch bought from the origin country and typically shown where it is from.

My Dad also bought me a Fila bag from Hong Kong. My mom brought along with her for me!

I brought my mom to Abercrombie and Fitch. She was indeed quite excited to see hot models walking around. We want to buy a t-shirt for Andrew but it was quite expensive so forget about it!

Last but not least my new online eye candy!
Jonas Surzbach. He is soooooooooooo hot!!!!!!!! He has 2 chinese character tatoo, Shen(God) on his biceps and Tian tang( Heaven) on his abs! Gosh!!! Way to sexy!!! He is Mr Brazil 2009!

How can you resist someone who is so sexay!!!! *nose-bleeding*

Asians take pictures of everything True?

2010-04-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

Do you always take picture whenever and wherever you are? Undeniably, we asians love to take pictures everywhere. Especially with the technology of camera and handphones, taking pictures is a must activity when we meet up friends, having a meal, travelling, uni, blah blah. Last week, I bought my camera to the Exeter Food festival, before starting our job, I gathered all volunteers to take a group picture (As seen from the previous post). I also invite my professor to join in the picture so that it will be a complete members of volunteering from the university. However, he rejected and said "that was an Asian thing, you guys take pictures of Everything!"
I was stoned for a bit and think about it. It is indeed true. I am the only one who brought a camera and excited to take picture. So, why Asians love to take pictures?

I do not know about Asians in general, personally I think is we want to show people what and how we are doing. With facebook and blogs are so frequently used, people take pictures and post them up to show what they had cooked, where they have gone, whom they met, what silly moments etc. My mom purposely open a facebook account because she wants to show me the pictures of Japan.

Besides showing the "things" that you have done, taking pictures can actually make yourself feel better. See in facebook, there are a lot of girls taking pictures of themselves. You know those "head-shot". Obviously, we know that some of them may undergo computer surgery, but the result mostly are good. As men are visual animal, young girls love to do that to attract boys and when they got attention, they feel better and also increase they self-esteem.

Talking about pictures, when I entered uni, most of my friends have a DSLR with them. I know Joel, David ad Okky are very passionate about photography but I also see some people just following the trend. I am not saying that the hobby is bad but is that what you love to do?
Or maybe you just want to look bit more professional? I used to think people with DSLR are people who really into photography and enjoy doing this as a hobby. They have the skills to taking the right angle, the correct lights, speed, contrast etc. Unfortunately, after what I have seen, I changed my mind. People just bought an DSLR because the quality of the picture is better. Some of them do not even know what is the real function of the camera. I personally think it is a waste of the product if the person do not know how to fully utilize it. Yes, you may argue that you can learn after you buy it. Totally agree, but you must have the passion and the determination to continue cuz I saw people just gave up photography just like that.

If you learn something, make sure you learn it right, learn it with passion :)

The 10th day of staying alone in the flat!

2010-04-12T06:19:00.000-07:00

Today is a good day. It's sunny out there and as usual, I am alone in my room, wasting time. Well, have to study for the exams. The past 4 days, I volunteered to help out in the Exeter Food Festival this year. Last year, I went to the festival and this year I work for the festival. Although there are not difficult jobs but just selling tickets and doing all random stuff. It was still a good experience for me. I get to know some of the best event organisers in the UK. Networking is important!
The best part in volunteering in this festival was to get free food from the exhibitors. Free bread, scones, coffee, cider etc. Still, not studying for 4 days was still worthwhile. I am having a study break and now have to head back to work!!! Meeting Mum in 4 days time!!!

The volunteering Team

p/s: While I am writing this blog, the inspectors are coming in to check the kitchen and my room!! Gosh!!! I totally forget about it!!!! Shit! I have messy room.....

Quiet

2010-04-03T15:55:00.000-07:00

All my flatmates went home. My flat is too quiet again!!
Erm.... should watch a scary movie!! hahhahaha~~

Take your own responsibility

2010-03-19T08:01:00.000-07:00

My Theory of Management module is going to end soon. When it comes to an end, some people just take the advantage of trying not to do anything. This is a horrible act, indeed, selfish, irresponsible, unconcerned and annoying.
Yes, I am here to talk bad about my groupmates. I don't care if they see this which I highly doubt it but what they do is Extremely unforgivable!
This is not high school, this is not individual work. This is University and GROUP WORK.
understand the word "GROUP"
The major problem of you is that, you think u already did your job. What we demand and what you will supply. Process and discussion never appear in your mind right??
Fine! if you did your part I am totally fine with it!!!
BUT!!! what you provide is RUBBISH!!!!
You call that a CV? you call that a personal statement? you call that summary report?
I have a word for those 3. They are simply rubbish.

I understand your level of English is not high and so do I. My first CV is equally bad but I improve so does the group. But, because you don't even bother to change and hand in a similar one??!!! How responsible of you. Tell us that you were sick while in fact you were in London with your bf? WTF???!!!!

I will see you in less than an hour......... i cannot hold it anymore. Because what you do will directly affect my score!!! Let's make things clear today!

P/s: I show you what is the "perfect"personal statement.
Without any correction. Directly from her, she even spell my name wrongly.

I did a part of the presentation which going to show the eight of sustainable practices with my partner Peter.

Ben is a good teacher for teaching our english because of there are six of us are not english speaker.He always to help us to correct mistakes. I can improve my english skill from Ben.

Natalia and Suan are full of creativity girls. There always got lots of ideas in their mind. I can receive lots of special ideas from them and it makes me feel very intersting.

Angelia is a quick-thinking. She can solve problems and answer questions very quickly and she is so confidence and so sucessful when she answered questions in the end of our presentation. She let me know that quick-thinking is very important.

Hitomi is a punctural girl, she let me feel about punctural is very important for group working.

Peter is a zeal boy. He like to help group members and he did very nice powerpoint in our prensentation. I feel about zeal is very important if you want to make friends from him.

Sun!

2010-03-14T07:33:00.000-07:00

March is here= spring is here= sun is here!!!

Finally, the awful coldness of UK is slowly fading away! Furthermore, my location in the South West of UK has one of the highest exposure of SUN!!!
What I did yesterday was, ditch my readings and homework, call my friends out to embrace the sun!!!

The clear blue sky!!!

Malaysian Gang!!

Me and my girls~~

Crossing the river with a hand-pulled ferry!!!

Sunny days make my day better always~~
My weather now is Sunny, what bout yours???

When too much things in your mind~~~

2010-02-26T14:35:00.000-08:00

That's when I start blogging so that I won't touch the work that I should do.

I start going through my blog and realize that I have not actually put any of my "night out parties" pictures to this blog. I wonder. oh ya!!! I think it is because I am afraid that my mom will come saw the pictures..... hahhaa..... Of course not! My mom knows I go out. Anyway, since Foto tagged a lot of pictures of me in facebook, so I might as well transfer some of the nicer ones here to show.
You know, some of the blogs that I read, always put clubbing pictures....so I also want to join the trend but I don't have much~~(oh, you can see how fat I am now!)
Here it goes;

Leila( the girl with flower) visits Exeter,

Girls night out on Valentine's Day!!!

Nesha's Bday in Prezzo, is Vero(Swiss) and Chili(Jap.)

Chillin, in Exeshed after fashion show! See Chili's killer boots!

See stupid Afi doing ugly faces!!!

Vero smokes while taking pictures,( can see smokes clearly) Nesha and Faiz...

I found out it just take me around 15 mins to post this entry which means that now, I have to head back to work!!! haiz~~~
chao!

I say.....

2010-02-25T05:32:00.000-08:00

~Raindrops keep falling on me head~

Bought a £10 umbrella!!!^^

Change

2010-02-19T05:44:00.000-08:00

Faiz told me that I have changed. Changed to a person that he thinks is too hard to approach. All these happen is just because that I do not want to go out and I skipped 2 lectures. What's wrong when nowadays that I go to library everyday and cut down my social entertainment? Why people like to judge and have a quick conclusion towards one when he/she doesn't know any particular detail? I am not pin-pointing at Faiz alone, I 've got that all the time from other people.
Maybe is really my problem but I do not really like to talk about myself to others. Amr used to say that I do not treasure my friends because I do not talk personal things or so called the "heart to heart" talk with any of my university friends here. Firstly, I do not have many problems myself. I am happy with my family and friends and furthermore, I am single which segregated me from the boy-girl complicated relationships problems. (In this moment, I suddenly wish my good friends are here, that even I do not need to talk, they will still understand my feelings...Lu, Bell, Ren, Jing, Kat, Yi Hui....... I need you!!!!)

Talking about change, I heard it many times. Why people just cannot accept changes in life, changes in character. We are human beings, we grow up we change, we learn we change, We regret we change, we failed we change. Even if people change from a good to not so good person is still an inevitable issue. Regardless what, people will constantly change by the things they see, they learn, they friends and also their maturity.

Few weeks back, most of my friends broke up with their bf/gf.
1. N started crying and complained that her bf changed. I really don't know how to console. I just think that when things come to a point that both cannot solve or tolerate, break up is the best solution, and now they are back together -.-!
2. Aki broke up with Ali, and now Ali wants her back by stalking her and call her everyday, but in fact he was the one who broke up with Aki first.
3. V broke up with A because she found that she is not really like him. If that so, why bother to start a relationship??
4. R and L was not in good terms and L now completely get out of R life after giving so many problems and mental stress to R.
5. Iza and her bf also broke up because the bf have another one. See see... boys.

Things change, people change.
Solution, try to fix the problem, if not just accept the fact. That's life.
C'est la Vie.

Be agressive!

2010-02-11T13:28:00.000-08:00

Things just piling up and I am very excited!
Recently, life for me is just wonderful. I have a very flexible term 2 which allows me to have more time for studies and fun.
I just register for the Exeter Award. This means that I will have a lot of things to do to earn my award. University provides a lot of opportunities and good aid to assist students to maximize their potential in every field. I personally took that for granted and did not make full use of what the Uni has to offer. Therefore, this term, I want to be more aggressive and get involve and commit to what I am doing.
I signed up for a variety of Employability workshop which are very useful. I learn to know what kind of employees big companies are looking for.Big companies I mean Ernst & Young, JP Morgan, Accenture, Bloomberg, Thomas Reuters etc. I might not be the perfect candidate for them right now but who knows after 3 years, I will be the one that they are craving for?( haha, hopefully).
To build up my profile and my knowledge, I started to join and attend a lot of talks. Last friday, I went to Bloomberg Europe headquarter in London. It was such a good trip. I learned so much from the trip. Since, I am in the Economics field, I get to meet people who are experts in their field. Everytime I leave the lecture hall, I realise how shallow I am, there are so many things that I do not know about my future career prospect. I am so "katak".
Have to change my attitude for a better future, more applications to fill, more CV to write!
But I am excited for all these! Next week, I am going to meet people from PriceWaterHouseCoopers!!! woohooo!!!!!

Not forgetting, Chinese New Year is just around the corner!!! I bought 2 new dresses for £20!!! Good deal!^^!

Signing off!

Graduation!

2010-01-24T12:24:00.000-08:00

First of all, to make things clear, it's not my graduation though! hahaha.....
It was my "sister" Aki's graduation!
Congratulations!
It was indeed so sweet of her to invite me to attend her master graduation ceremony. Although I just attending, I felt the happiness and the joyful of all the graduates. Some of them brought along the family. It was so sweet. The children were so proud of their dad/mom. A mother of a chinese master graduates broke into tears when her daughter went up stage to receive the certificate from the chancellor. She was very emotional. I guess most of the parents will be emotional especially the parents themselves have not been to a university or the graduate is the first in the family to graduate from a university.
You can tell the process of the ceremony was kinda bored and dull, I entertained myself by listening to the thesis of the Phd students. Their thesis were so difficult to understand. ie "photo-induced of the two dimensional hole-system", or "nanocrynomites xxxxxxxx in the lettuce prevent the rice fungus xxxxxxxxx" etc. It was pretty impressive and I gave my fullest respect to those who gained their doctorate in their perspective fields.

woohoo~~ MSC. It will never happen to me.

and there she is!

Brenda, who was also graduated from Biosciences field.

Yup, it's Aki the Iraqi!
After ceremony tea, the scones were sooooo good!

After graduation, Aki brought me to a Greek party. It was so fun. They played Greek songs the whole night and the people were enjoying themselves so much by dancing the traditional dances and moves. It was like a festival!!! Learning about their culture was so interesting and the people were so welcoming. Therefore, I am planning to go to Greece this coming Easter break!! Woohoo~~~ It's time for some Mediterranean experience!!! hahhaaha~~ looking forward to!!!

Aki loves my chubby face!

Hi Greece, I am coming soon~~

σε αγαπώ and μου λείπεις

P&P= Portsmouth and Party!!!

2010-01-20T07:37:00.001-08:00

Before the new term starts, I went to Portsmouth to visit one of my sweethearts~~ RenEe.
Despite the long journey, it does not stop me from going cuz I just missed her!! hahha~~
Portsmouth is so much bigger than Exeter, a bigger city, and sea! There, they have the tallest building outside London but I have already forgotten the name. I was impressed that one of the episode of Mr Bean was shot there, too bad the theme park was closed. It's kinda windy and cold that day anyway. It felt unbelievable to meet Ren in Portsmouth. I don't know. It just felt not real but yet she was there talking and chatting and laughing and stupiding and watching 10 episodes of 痞子英雄！！！Although short, it was a nice trip.

The sea~~

The chain of XXX( I forget ). The other identical one is in Australia.

Thank you Ren for everything!!!!

On Monday, it was NAtalie's (my flatmate) birthday! We throw her a party and there was loads of people coming to our flat. I never see so many people in the kitchen before. Our Kitchen is small and very dirty. hahaha..... Well, I think British just not use to washing their dishes after eating. They used to have dish-washer and that's why my kitchen is always full of unclean pots and pans and dirty dishes. It was a great night. The theme of the birthday party was Mr Men and Little miss. Everyone dressed up as one of the character and as usual, I do not. I am always the odd one out compare to them. I went to bed after talking to mom and Nat had to wake me up to remind me that the party was starting in 5 min. I was chilling and take my own sweet time to shower and do a very simple-not impressing make up. But, it was still good fun.

The bday girl.... Natalie!! Happy 21st!!!

Me, Piers dressed as Mr Brave and Tweety!

My kitchen full of people!!!

My flatmates....Ben, Nat, Matt,Me and Piers!
We went to the club later, and despite I did not clubbing for more than a month, I forget how to dance. End up talking to Amr's friend most of the time. Oh yes, not forgetting to mention that I was approached by a British guy while dancing and spent 10 min with him, did not know who he is. Later, my flatmate was "OMG, I am so jealous of you, you are dancing with Taffy. You lucky b*tch! I am going to write on my Facebook status to tell everyone about it".
Me:" who the hell was Taffy???"
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Apparently, Taffy is one of the Sabbatical Team who runs the Student Guild. He is the most popular among them all. Everyone says the he is the coolest guy~~~Well.... I don't know, is too dark in the club. Hahahaha....
Now, I have something to brag about!!!!hehehe~~

规划

2010-01-17T14:37:00.000-08:00

我要对自己的人生负责。。
接下来得日子。。。要好好的规划..

I am done yo~

2010-01-13T05:51:00.000-08:00

Looking forward to meet RenEe ^^!
Portsmouth, here I come~~~

Pressie~~

2010-01-02T12:30:00.001-08:00

It's the second day of the new year.
I should be studying for the exam which a week later. I did study.... but not much!hahaha
It's been a long time that I have not update a blog properly. This is because I do not have anything interesting to tell you about. Well, at least not interesting for me.

I went shopping today. spend around 30 pounds on unnecessary.

Lip balm
body scrub
body shampoo
eye-shadow 1
eye-shadow 2
kohl eyeliner
eye shadow 3

hahhaa.... see?? big spender. Yes, I am!

Well, today I just wanna show off my Christmas presents. haha.... not really showing off but just to share my pleasure and happiness with you all.
Present from aunty Jane. A Hollister shawl. I never imagine that I will get something from Hollister now because it is so expensive. The clothes there never less than £50. Happy to get one!! I did not take a full length of the shawl, oh! it's the one that I wear in my facebook profile picture. Show you a bit! The grey and white shawl that is it!!
Second, hahha.... from my mom. Actually I bought it myself and she said it was my Christmas present. She pays I buy!! Hahaha.... I am the luckiest person in the world! My mom loves me, I know.Please excuse my awful face. I took off the make up before taking this pic!!
Does the phone looks familiar??? FYI, if you watch " You're beautiful"（原来是美男), all of them used the phones... hahaha.... I have the same colour as Jeremy!!! hehehe.....

Thirdly, from Kat Kat!! a bracelet from Spain!! You can see it from above, but I want to show the one with Kat. It's a couple bracelet, a key and a lock! Kat has the key, I have the lock!! She "lock" me!!!
My secret santa gave me this! It is a recycling book~ it is so nice.

I love my presents! Do you love yours??
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upload a nicer picture!! (See the magic of making up^^) No photoshopped, cuz I dunno how to use -.-' and I wish I know~~

31-12-2009

2009-12-31T04:11:00.000-08:00

The last post of the year.

Yes, it is.
It's time for a summary of the year.

2009 is the year that I mostly spent in the UK, precisely in Exeter.
I met a lot of new friends and also get to experience a lot of new things.
This is the year I officially turned into an adult. Well, nothing special actually but still get to wear and carry branded stuff.
Got my first, T&Co, A/X bag, BB makeup, Nine West and Steve Madden Shoes, etc etc.
Life here is great, and I appreciate everything that comes to me. Ups and downs are essentials but I handled it well enough, I guess!

In the last day of the year, I spend my time reading and studying for my exams( and what I am here doing now? blogging??? lol) Later at night maybe to go and have a dinner and countdown. Should we be all wasted? hahhaha
who knows!!! maybe!
anyway, To everyone, Happy New Year and all the best in the coming year!!!!

I just wanna to say.......

2009-12-25T13:21:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!

It is a blessed for you to come into this world and make this world a better place at least for me and for my family. You are so kind hearted that you do not want a birthday because on this day was the date of Tsunami!

I wish you all the best in the coming years and be successful in what ever you do!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!! MISS YOU!!!!!!

Caugh in the middle

2009-12-20T13:47:00.000-08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

Now you're gone~~

2009-11-29T05:32:00.000-08:00

Good bye my love~~~~
I dont mean to abandon you and I hope some kind people will send you back to me~~~
Hang on my love~~~
I miss you!!!!

Coffee

2009-11-28T01:52:00.000-08:00

I come from a own that brew one of the best coffee in Malaysia---Ipoh.
Old time white coffee is so famous and the Kopitiam restaurant which franchise all over Malaysia have indeed made a good fortune.
Despite growing up in the "Coffee Town", I was not a coffee lover then. I drank Milo( coco drink) everyday before going to school. I did drink once a while because it does help to stay awake during my burning midnight oil days. Or when some friends came back during holidays, we will try to meet up in Starbucks and Coffee bean. As I grow older, I still prefer tea over coffee because I think coffee is too strong and can be very addictive.

Things change when I came to University. With the perfect location of Starbucks coffee(2 of them) in campus and the "wonderful" cold weather here, I started to drink coffee, lots of them. Now, it almost like once a day. I reckon this is not something good. The coffee trend in UK has influence me for sure. Besides, Starbucks, Cafe Ritazza in campus brew one of the nicest Italian coffee. Outside uni, I love to go to Boston Tea Party, enjoying my milky and foamy latte, chilling out while reading books.

However, I think I have to reduce the amount of coffee I consume. First, of course I have to save money rather spending all on coffee, secondly, I want to reduce carbon emission. I admit that I am consciousness towards environment is quite low but if is really able to cut down carbon emission by drinking less coffee, I think I am able to do that. At least, it made me feel better from the inside.
The lastest issue of New Scientist shows that an avearage cup of black coffee is responsible for 175kilograms of CO2 each year which equals for a flight from London To Rome. Adding milk, the methane blended by dairy cows increase the emission by a third. A regular latte( my favourite) takes 200 litre of water to produce inclusive of the coffee, milk, sugar and cup. After reading the article, I was kinda shock. Well, scientist are too free and that's why they use up all the time to do research and made consumers feel bad.+.+
I will try to reduce... try la!!!
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Anyone fancy to have a coffee with me?:p

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2009-11-21T03:37:00.001-08:00

You know you should not but you just cannot help it!
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Back And Then!

2009-11-12T11:13:00.000-08:00

I just came back from Cardiff and so reluctant to do work.
I open my Iphoto album and go through every pics.....
Wow, it brings back a lot of memory!!!!

Back and then

When we were 18.

When we turn 21!

My 18th birthday

My 21st Birthday!!

My Chemistry class back then, Mr Hanson

My Management Class, Dr Sohret

Back Home Gathering!!!

Gathering in Notthingham!

I realised that I do change a lot!! LOL!!!!

Random Pictures of how I look recently!

2009-10-29T13:53:00.001-07:00

I am so lazy to put caption. haha....

The £50 is so near yet so far

2009-10-26T13:00:00.000-07:00

I should have a £50 cheque with me by this week. Oh my god, it just flew away just because the person who toss the coin did not do it properly ( not her fault though).

The story goes like this.
In my political economy lecture, there was an experiment to determine human are benevolence in anyway whether they are being watched or not as Adam Smith said so. The "impartial spectator" is watching, so whatever we do we are doing out of benevolence. The lecturer told is that Student X is going to receive £50. So, what Student X will do with that £50? Keep it or give it to charity? Almost 200 student vote. We have to vote for 3 times. The first vote is anonymous. Second vote is with your name on the vote. Third vote is, if you are student X, what will you do? No one knows who is Student X.
And today, the results was announced. Obviously, the percentage of giving it to charity is higher when the names are shown compare to anonymous and student X IT'S ME!!! ME !!! ME!!!!
and my vote is TO KEEP THE £50 FOR MYSELF!!!!!
BUT...... here comes the evil word....
lecture has to toss the coin whether he gives the £50 pound to me or give ti to the charity...
shitty unlucky, tails... tails means give it to charity and here it goes... my £50 gone!!!
huhuhuhu~~~~~ if not my Notthingham trip will be free!!! arhhhhh!!!!!!

I am a lucky who got chosen among 200 of them and yet I am not getting the money!!!
Someone sponsor my trip for Notts games!!!!

Busy busy busy

2009-10-25T11:23:00.000-07:00

University life has not be so busy before.
Or perhaps I am the one who make it so busy.
1)I have 5 modules this term compare to the other which has only 3.
2)I took Political Economy instead of introduction to Finance in my optional modules which means a harder module and more reading compare to others.
3)I register for In Sessional English Programme to improve my academic writing.
4)I enrolled for employability programmes to help to write good CV, interview skills and employability skills.
5)I joined Dancesports and I have a competition coming up next month in Southampton.
I need to do A LOT of practice with my partner.
6)I have a 1000 words of book review to hand up end of Nov and I have not start reading yet.
7) Seminar is coming in 3 weeks time and I did not even know who are my groupmates yet.
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Things driving me a little bit crazy!!!
hahhaa

p/s: I wrote this post half way then I go to sleep for 2 hours and now simply complete it!

Sick+busy+fun

2009-10-14T11:41:00.000-07:00

New term starts with a bang!!! big bang!!!
which is terrible sick followed me for more than a week.
It started when I cough blood before the squash and now with uncountable tissues on my desk.

But still life in Uni is awesome. I get to know new people. Some nice and some nasty ones for sure.
Another thing, I am now living with a bunch of British. They treated me okay and always invite me for anything they are doing. Consider quite nice as they did not threat me different.
Well, according to them, they don't see me different. They think that I am like them. hahahha....
omg.. I am half mat salleh now. Our flat claim ourselves as the alcoholic flat as everyone of us can drink. Well, I can but not much and not really liking it but them....woohoo!!!! Love it!!!
one thing, they do not force me. It's up to individual to drink what you want but must be alcohol. So what I do, I will pour 1 cm height of vodka and 5cm height of orange juice. Ratio 1:5. Them? 1:1.. hahhaha.....

Today, I cried. Amr left Uk and never come back. He will definitely be missed not only by me but others as well. He will be remembered as a nice, helpful, funny and kind person. Hope you will be successful in the other part of the world. Yes, he is going to study at New Zealand. Thousand and thousand miles away from here!!!! All the best!

Last week, I went Caving. OMG.... it was awesome!!!! I love it to the max.
Just sharing it with bell over msn just now. It's muddy, wet, cold, slippery but that is the fun of it!!
I cannot wait to go for another trip which is in south of wales..... yeah... I am coming. This time, I assume the cave will be even more challenging!!!! That's what I am aiming for! To conquer it.
Okky told me the longest cave in England is 75 KM. If the club really aim for that, I think we have to camp in the cave for a week to finish it!!! Wow, cannot imagine that.
Besides caving, I went for my first paintball in my life. I cannot say it was my type of game but I truly enjoy it. Although I got bruises all over my leg, but its alright. Cuz it is for Amr!!!
But 3 out of 5 games, I am the first one who got shot! I am so noob at this. hahha.... fall down too many times. ohya... on that day, there is this male dog keep on fucking with xyuro's hand... it was so disgusting!!! and funny too!!!

the post is not organised and with out a clear outline because I just type it without structure.
what is in the mind, just type out so bare with my english and my randomness.....
Will try to update more frequent!!

Here I come~

2009-09-27T02:40:00.000-07:00

Leaving London in 2 hours time.
Glenna is still sleeping and I will wake her up after this post.
I was in Glenna's place for the pass 4 days. I really just tumpang at her place like she mentioned that how many hours do I actually stay at home. If I have time, I will go out... find friends etc etc.

Glenna just woke up and asked me what time in chinese....-.-"
hahhaa

I have to thanks Glenna for her hospitality and kindness. Thanks Glenna-na for everything.
Back to uni makes me feel alive again.
I can't wait and I will be good to myself and others.
~excited~

too bored, that's why

2009-09-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

Once again I leave my family and country~~~~ for good.
Thinking everytime that I am about to leave my family, I feel bad.
Nothing in the world can really make me sad and depress except my family.
Well, not because I do not treasure my relationships with my friends but just the priority of family always comes first.
Despite all obstacles and challenges in life that I had face over the years, now I am ready for what I have been longing for. Surprise to say that, I actually feel nervous and worried at all times. Well, I am still a girl, still thinks and paranoid at all times. Wondering that in this stage of life, I have to grow up to be even stronger and better person. At the age if 21, many people have achieve so much in life but me?
Flashing back the time, I think I do achieve something. It might no be as magnificence as others but I do love my life. I have loving family and great friends. I have no problem in terms of my financial status and certainly comfortable with my social circle. What else in life I can demand more?
Glad for everything in life.
Please forgive me for my weird post that I wrote due to the boredom in Dubai airport. Aiya~~~ I emo , that’s why.
p/s: wah…. Even the google here is in arabic, how am I suppose to understand and click le?

How do I look?

2009-09-08T21:16:00.000-07:00

oh yes, I went to have a hair cut. my hairstylist told me I am not having a hair cut but a make over. Haha......My hair was a mess but now at least have a shape.

Actually, my hair is not done yet. I am still thinking whether should I perm it. The big S type and dyed my hair into red. Tomorrow I will go to the saloon and have another makeover. Haha.....

Okay.... I promise to load up my new look after the whole thing is done!!!

Stay tune~

I am loving every minute back home!

wow! one month!

2009-08-31T09:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry people. I know I have abandon my blog for a month. Sorry for not updating this blog frequently. Well... sounds like I have a lot of readers. Haha.
Anyways, my last post was written in my room, and now I am writing this in My Room. I will take my sweet time to do so.
Within this month, not much happen. I sat for my exam then results came out, I came back, I went KL then came back and eat!

I went to KL to meet my college mates. So nice to meet up with them and crap a lot. From yesterday, today and future!!! yacht...private jet....lol

I think it will be a busy month for me. One month is too short for me. But somehow, sometime, I missed the times in Exeter!! hahaha.......
So contradictory~

My Korean Boyfriends!

2009-08-01T13:05:00.000-07:00

Well, sometimes when I have nothing to do, I look for handsome guys... hahahaha... and these are my boyfriends!!! I can even blush when i just look at their pics... lol!!!!!

Introducing my man in the boy band that I know!!

Jung Min in SS501...why he can be so handsome???

Junsu in 2PM.... talented and misery

U-know in DBSK.... piping Hot!!

Kangin in Super Junior.... so cute!!!!!

T.O.P in Big Bang..omg!!!! how can boys be so hot!!!! He is mine!!!

Quiz of the day:

What all my boyfriends have in common?

p/s: Don't say that they are singers or they are man like that ar!!!!

Old Barn Cottage

2009-07-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I was invited to Xyuro's house. She stays with a British family. The name of the house is Old Barn Cottage. See, British can name their house not like us No 2, Jalan...blah blah blah......

Her host mother and father was friendly and so nice. Me and Carolyn played around their big gardens and had a marvellous dinner. But the portion was too big and way before the dessert we were so full and yet still eat down the ice-cream and scones. GOSH!!!!

I found that old British people love simple life. Roger and Moreal lives together and just only 2 of them. That's why they collaborate with the University for homestay programme to live with people from different country. They are quite rich I think because they have 3 big lands. Big ones. Their house is very big too with big dining table, living room,garage and bedrooms. It is a nice experience to visit a British family and have a proper British meal. Love it~

Toilet!

Their back yard... the scenery is beautiful!

Roger and Moreal!!!

Playing in the another garden.

Xyuro's Playboy room!

I dont know what is it... I just know it stinks!

PLaying the trampellin, Carolyn acting Spiderman!

好好听！！

2009-07-19T14:02:00.000-07:00

The making of a 63kg girl...

2009-07-16T14:10:00.000-07:00

It is easy, the following are the steps to increase weights

First, do not eat breakfast. Sleep as much as you can and wake up at the nick of the time which enough for wash-up and make ups.

Secondly, before lunch, get yourself a packet of chips or a bar of chocolate. OH.... for exercising your mouth.lol

Thirdly, Lunch time. Eat anything you like. Preferable carbs because you need energy for the rest of the day. After lunch time, better not to do exercise or walk around. Best to just sit down and this is when your fat butt and big tummy start to form

Fourthly, tea-time. Eat either bread, cookies, cakes and sip a cuppa milky coffee.

It's time for a short nap. Go for a nap after tea-time.

It's dinner time when you wake up. So, get prepared for the nicest meal of all. Dinner should include sodium, protein and must have desert. It is advisable to take ice-cream. After having the dinner. Sit in front of the computer or starting to do homework until you are so exhausted and head to bed.

See? isn't so simple to gain weight? Oh yes, the most important and significant one
DO NOT DO ANY EXERCISE!!!!! bare in mind.
With this, I gurantee you to gain at least 1 kg per week.
Interested? give it a try!!

Randomness~~~

2009-07-10T15:06:00.000-07:00

These few days is full of research and a lot of readings to finish my assignments. Well, at least I get to finish and passed up my accounting and management assignment. The last one will be my economics assignment which due end of August. Aiyayaya~~~~ have to do a lot of studies and research.. I hate finding sources :(

Last term is always busy as you all may know and yet is summer which "seducing" me to go for holidays like the beaches. I want to explore Devon and Cornwall, hehhee..... also I want to watch a lot of movies. Movies I want to watch are, Ice Age, Bruno, Public Enemy, Harry Potter, The Proposal, Sherlock Holmes, Knowing and many many..... oh my god... so many movies and so less time.

Back to some miscellaneous that happen in life recently. I have 2 more new flatmates and both are girls from China studying English for the Summer. Both are my older sister as they will be studying Master in the coming term. At last I am not the only girl in my flat and at least I have some company. Hehhee...... One of them, Brenda even gave me a present---- Anna Sui's perfume when we first meet!!! wow!!! You knoe Chinese ARE rich!! My mom said she cannot tahan anymore.....Anyway, I take it.. bleah bleah.....

3 of my classmates kena Swine Flu and I am so paranoid. I am so scared that I will get affected. What I do is to stay in my room all day. If not possible I will not go out. But, too bad tomorrow got Hotpot so have to go city centre to buy food. Swine Flu is quite serious here, and my lecture said that after 2 months, everyone in Britain will affected by Swine Flu. I DUN WANT!!!!
I was heard of a ridiculous party known as " Swine Flu Party". The party is to have fun with people who get Swine Flu and spread the virus around and everyone will get that eventually and get over with it somehow later! What???!!!! I really dun understand what the British are thinking!! hehe.... anyway.. no worries, I am taking care of myself.

Coming home is less than 2 months time!! yeah!

Some random pictures!!! The view from my room, it's 8.30PM

This is 10pm then....

Present from my flatmates.

I got terrible sunburnt!!!!

Went to BTP to do my homework and sipping my favourite cappuchino and chicken ciabatta.
The waiter asked me Shell or leaf? and I said leaf!!! He made me this~~~^^

Julie from Indonesia brought me some of her cookings!! This is good. Its spicy and taste like backhome~~~~ Thank you!!!

Listening to: BIG BANG, Gara gara GO!!!!

What's wrong with me?

2009-07-03T09:31:00.000-07:00

Do you ever experience that you try so hard for something and yet you did not get what you should have? For me, oh yes! it always happen..... and I always complain about it.
It happen to me this time again... I still feel sad but I get over it quickly.
I found out one thing about myself. My problem is not that I did not try hard or work hard.
I work and do it hardly IN THE WRONG WAY!

I am old enough to have self realization. Back to 2 or 3 years time, I always get frustrated that why I cannot score better or do better on any task and studies. I put in so much effort and does not come out like what I was expecting. Well, I was too young to admit my mistake and not willing to face the fact that I am actually not working hard enough. I work hard BUT not ENOUGH.
Like Dr Shoret (my management lecturer)said:" you just have to push it! you think you are good enough but you are not until you take another step out, who knows you can actually go for another mile?" I know everyone must have known or already heard of these advice from all sources. But, it always easier said than done and ME always stuck in the proccess of pushing myself to the ultimate limit.

I write this because I received my results. The subject that I had prepared the most scored the lowest mark among all. Well, I guess I have to look for another approach to score. No worries, I did not fail and I still got a distinction. The problem is that I know I can do much more better than this and I did not. Is not about the grades but is the self-actualisation within myself. I just wanna scream~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I have a new flat mate

2009-06-29T14:42:00.000-07:00

I thought my annoying Hong Kong flatmates gone can bring some peacefulness in flat. BUT, here comes the new flatmates! OMG OMG OMG........ he is from Nigeria and he is 6ft tall. So tall and huge. I am not looking forward to stay in the same flat cuz I know he is a trouble maker. Trust me I know him why????
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I know stories about him from his friends.
oh gosh!
Worrying~~~hehe!

HOlidays~~

2009-06-19T12:41:00.000-07:00

I am so uninspired now. I stay in my room all day. The only place I go is the kitchen which is less than three steps from my door room. Suppose to be doing my assignments and end up watching movies end up trying on my clothes to mix and match my clothes for the summer.

Life in England can be exciting and boring at times. Especially during holidays. I rather have some lectures to pass time. But, during lectures I wish I have holidays. Hahaha.... I am always contradictory. I think all students are as me.

So envy that most of my friends are going back home. AHHhhhh......so envy envy. I miss home. I want to go home.Eat good food. OH no.... I gained weight as always that I have to cut down on my portion of food. Yesterday somemore eat curry fish and bak kut teh. My friends said it's delicious. Haha.... my cooking skills ones again has upgrade.

Now waiting for my pork ribs to be cooked! Tonight will end my day with the novel that I got by buying Company magazine!

Oh yes, I am 21 now!

2009-06-13T15:39:00.000-07:00

First of all, really thanks for all your wishes and presents. Not forgetting for Amr and Hitomi's secret hardwork to organise a simple birthday party for me. For those who thinks that I will have a big and overrated birthday party, ooopsss sorry to dissapoint you. Because I want to hold one year because of my grandfather la~~~Anyways it was still a great night. Glenna and Danusha came all the way from London to meet me.... so touch!!!! and we had great moments and times together.
Not forget to mention that Exeter's City Council also put off fireworks on the river on behalf of my birthday!!!! Hahaha.... no la!!! Coincidently, yesterday was the first day for Exeter Summer Festival. Fireworks is for the opening ceremony la... I think! Although there was no cake and candles, I still enjoyed my day as the Bday girl!!!!

21.. is the age that stepping into another stage of life. I am an adult now. A lot people had reach something at this age. I just want to be the best of whatever I am. Living my life to the fullest!
Love from me to all of you!

My presents~~~ Thanks y'all

MY current favourite Singer!

2009-06-07T14:48:00.000-07:00

Lily Allen~ She is awesome!!!

Introducing---The Fear...

I want to be rich and I want lots of money

I don`t care about clever I don`t care about funny

I want loads of clothes and f***loads of diamonds

I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I`ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless

`Cuz everyone knows that`s how you get famous

I`ll look at the sun and I`ll look in the mirror

I`m on the right track yeah I`m on to a winner

Chorus

I don`t know what`s right and what`s real anymore

I don`t know how I`m meant to feel anymore

When we think it will all become clear

`Cuz I`m being taken over by The Fear

Life`s about film stars and less about mothers

It`s all about fast cars and passing each other

But it doesn`t matter cause I`m packing plastic

and that`s what makes my life so f***ing fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption

and its not my fault it`s how I`m program to function

I`ll look at the sun and I`ll look in the mirror

I`m on the right track yeah I`m on to a winner

Chorus

I don`t know what`s right and what`s real anymore

I don`t know how I`m meant to feel anymore

When we think it will all become clear

`Cuz I`m being taken over by The Fear

Bridge

Forget about guns and forget ammunition

Cause I`m killing them all on my own little mission

Now I`m not a saint but I`m not a sinner

Now everything is cool as long as I`m getting thinner

Chorus

I don`t know what`s right and what`s real anymore

I don`t know how I`m meant to feel anymore

When we think it will all become clear

`Cause I`m being taken over by fear

Opps... I went for a trip (again)

2009-05-31T09:18:00.000-07:00

It's hot in Devon now, sun shines up high everyday. How can I resist the temptation of going to one of the famous beaches in England----->St Ives? hahaha... Yes, yes, yes. I went to St Ives on Saturday. St Ives is at the very south west of England. It is in Cornwall. I did not tell my mom, (Sorry Mumee) because I decided to go after chatting with her on Friday. St Ives is also BEAUTIFUL. The sea is so blue and the sand at the beach are so fine. So nice to have a sun bath there. Too bad, I did not bring along my swimsuit along if not I will jump into the deep blue and clear sea. One thing, the water was cold. I cannot stand in the sea for long because I can feel my legs are freezing. I also climbed up the stones and cliff, although it is dangerous but it was fun to do so.... adventurous!! hehe.... We also went up to the top of the hill to have a complete view of St Ives.... Omg Omg... It is a picturous view. Love it, although it was quite windy!!! I wanna go to St Ives again since I am not going to Ibiza... hahaha......

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is St Ives.

My companies!
I was on top of a rock
On top of the hill!!
Lazying on the green grass!
St Ives's town
Clear sea but cold!
Windy day!

I am a happy girl!!!
My lunch... mussels~~slurps!!
Took this pic in a restaurant near the beach!

Summer!!!! I love summer!!!!! oh ya... I got sunburnt... ouch!

Yo.... is your B day WeiJie!!!!

2009-05-26T14:28:00.000-07:00

It's your 23rd birthday Weijie!!!!! Omg.... I can't believe you are that old already... hahaha......
It was really nice to talk to you today!!! Wait for me and I will fly to NYC to meet up. Our next stop----->PAris.
Miss ya!!!

Plymouth trip!!

2009-05-25T13:35:00.000-07:00

Due to 4 days holiday, from Friday to Monday, I suggested to go to Plymouth to jalan-jalan. So, on Saturday early morning, 3 guys, 4 girls, 7 nationalities gathered at St Davids station and here we go to -------> Plymouth!!!!

Plymouth is much bigger than Exeter for sure. When we reach there, we totally can sense that Exeter is no doubt a village no wonder all my friends back home have no idea where is it... haha... nvm nvm....that is another stories. Back to the trip. Plymouth is BEAUTIFUL. We enjoyed the sea view so much at the end of the trip, we went back to the Hoe, bought fast food and have our dinner there with the spectacular view. For your information, the sun sets at around 9pm during spring. So, we able to watch the sun sets... so nice~~~~~~

At one time, boys and girls split up to have some free time. We girls, of course will not hesitate to go SHOPPING..... ahem... window shopping I mean... hahha.....As usual, went to numerous shops and try on a lot of dresses and did not buy any!!! hahahahaha.

See, start posing for the dresses the we cannot afford. Oh ya.. I fit in size 8!!

Ify, enjoying her ice-cream....
Throwing stones until they hurt their back...

Nice view right?

My Brunch
Plymouth city centre!

happy holidays lol~~

I have no face to see people~(very chinese way of saying)

2009-05-18T16:25:00.000-07:00

I trimmed my eye brown just now... and it came out very very very very very very bad....
this is the ugliest eye brown I have in my entire life!!! How can I attend lecture tomorrow???
Help!!! I am so ugly right now!!! gosh!

I miss my family

2009-05-12T13:56:00.001-07:00

Aww......It just less than 2 months since I last saw them, I had already missing them deeply.
It is all because of Gossip Girl. Blame it for this time. The lastest episode is about Mother and daughter relationship. How mother will do to protect her daughter and always choose the best way to her. In the show, Lily even arrested her daughter, Serena just to make sure she kept out of trouble. It would be totally insane to hear that, but from the mother's point of view, it is all because of the daughter.
Like how our mothers protect us whatever mistakes we have done.
My mom used to tell me that no problem that cannot be solved. Anything happen later in life, I can always fall back to my family. I always tell my mom that if I broke up with my boyfriend, I will cry in her arms and she will be there with open arms. I talked to her this afternoon and so shameful is that she called me instead I called her. Even worst is that, I have to see Michelle(UCAS Staff) that I have to end the conversation quickly. Feel so terrible about it and yet I did not call back cuz I have not done my international sim card.

The show makes me miss my family very much in the moment. Missing MOM, DAD, AHBOY, AH MA, YIYI and Many.......

Movies~

2009-05-10T16:11:00.001-07:00

Recently, I watched some movies to kill time. Of course after exam, watching movie is one of the best reward after all. Well, staying at home watching movies can save money instead of going out though. Hehe. Anyhow, Just to share some movies that I watched recently.First of all is Madagascar 2. Shame to say that, I did not finish the movie. Because, I fall asleep half way. I did not bother to watch all over again due to I watch it online rather than I download it. So, for me, its funny but somehow I just like skim through the movie. Hehe...... Next!
Yes, is Shutter! The Thailand version. OH ya.... this movie. God! I think I have watch it like 5 times? I watched it for 2 times here. Let me tell you another shameful thing. Although, I have watched it for couple of times, some scary part I did not watch... hehehe.... First time was in KYUEM with a group of girls. All I did was sitting behind Jia Jia and watched her back and listen to the sound. Next one, in Buddy's room but watch tiny little bit because too scared. Third time, is the English version, with Hitomi and Wen Jun in Cambridge. That was not scary but I still !!!!! you know..... fourth time is with Hitomi again, thai version. I am better this time as I am able to watch most of it. The last time was with 6 friends. That one, I was Sleeping!!!! I did not want to watch but they forced me, end up I slept through the movie all time.... hehe.... NO MORE SHUTTER FOR ME ANYMORE!!!!!!
Alright, next! 2046. This is a good movie. I start to like this kind of movie. Deep drama. Haha... It is good. Talking about dilemma, the lust, the contradiction between feelings. It is a love story but it is not the typical one. Nothing like " I can't live without you!!!". It is more deep, more content. I like the technique used by the director to express an author's life. Traveling between future and present, reality and imagination. All I can say is Good! Highly recommended. I read the reviews and comment before I watched it. It stated, "You won't understand the movie if you are not in love before" Hello??!!! I understand. See? I am clever right? haha.....

Last but not least, "In Brudges". This is another one funny but with meaning. Funny part is just the way they speak. Strong Irish accent with a lot of foul language. One sentence will have at least 3 F word. Brudges is a place in Belgium. According to the movie, everyone should visit Brudge before we die. It is a sad ending that everybody dies. The movie is about 2 murderer went to Brudges to kill someone and one of them is gonna be killed by the boss. It is hard for me to describe it well because of its complication. It is not an action movie. No difficult stunts and special effects. It is about friendship, betrayals, principles, and guilt. I cried at one part of the movie but laugh after. Haha... was a sad but funny movie. Give it a try if you have time!
That's all I have to share. I want to watch more movies. Changeling, the Reader, 7 pounds, also I am waiting for Angels and Demons!!!! hehehe... can't wait. Happy watching everybody!

Peace of mind

2009-05-07T02:18:00.000-07:00

Rather to have a long journey to the library, I decided to stay in room to study.
Somehow, the condition of the room is totally "suitable" for study.
My "considerable" flatmates will play computer games and shouted out loud in the kitchen.
So "fortunate" that the kitchen is just right in front of my room less than 3 steps away. Their beloved friends will come in and out and start closing the door "Softly" numerous time without consider that it was already midnight.
The always "friendly" British will start singing and talking loud right outside my room.
Heavy vehicle will zoom their way out to prove that how many horse power they have.
strangers from upstairs will throw something on the floor and cause me have a phobia of the ceiling will fall down one night while I am sleeping.
I just want to have a peace in mind. Tomorrow is my last paper.
Just one night~
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aiya~ya....

2009-05-04T16:50:00.000-07:00

It's exam again. Student life is never ever gonna be separated from exam. I got 2 exams to go.....
study la~~~~

Thinking too much!

2009-04-26T13:56:00.000-07:00

I was told by my friends that I am too rational.
They told me sometime I should be more emotional rather than rational.
I should have not think too much while doing something outside academia.
In terms of treating friends or having fun with others.
Thinking too much will only prevent others(especially boys) to approach me.
Well, this is according to their sayings.
They also said I should not be to straight forward on everything that I said. It is not about being offensive or not but rather I have lost some mystery area and imagination space.
For example, if someone call me out for a dinner, if I don't feel like going, I should not say no. I should say, "I am not sure, if you really want.... but I cannot confirm with you". Even if I am positive of not going. That's what I was told.
I was also told that I should be more"stupid". I should not know anything. If I know, I should pretend I am not.
Also, always try to create an imaginary situation with guys if possible. Not to say flirt but always make them looks important to me. Always take the first step to sms, msn or call. Even the situation is not really serious but try to make it like one.Or if I am boring, I should find someone.
That's the lecture part.

Well, the fact is.... ahem.... I cannot do that.
case 1: If I don't want to go out, I will say" sorry, I don't feel like going out. Have fun!"
case 2: If I know, I know. If I don't know, I don't know. Won't purposely pretend cuz I think is hard and eventually will be revealed.
case 3: I don't know how to create the "situation". I am totally not good at this. I really should have learn how to. Cuz I see some friends they gain much from that. BUT, I know I cannot because I just cannot "use" somebody like that.

I told them, and they say that's how I am still single because I care and think too much. The conclusion of the conversation with these girls is, I must change to be "like them" before 21. Muahahha...... hard hard. Was in doubt of whether I can or not......
I am an undercover consavertive girl.
Those who do not know me well, won't be able to notice that, right my highschool sweethearts?
hahaha..... try and see how it goes.
once again, I doubt I can. hahahah!!

I love food.... as always!!!

2009-04-20T12:10:00.000-07:00

Last week, Exeter city and council held the "Exeter food and drink festival". As the authentic food lover of course I am not going to miss this event. Even I know that the entrance fees is not cheap. It was 5 pounds but it was just the entrance fee. You have to pay for the food inside. Well, I thought why not give it a try.
It held for 3 days, but I just went on Sunday. Sunday was a sunny day, very suitable to go for outdoor activities.We went there at noon and start hunting for food. We try out every food that it was displayed. Try from chicken sausages, to all types of cheese, sauce and nice apple juice etc etc etc......The council even invited some top chefs to join this festival. They demonstrated some dishes and cooking style. Responds was overwhelming!!!!
I was delighted when I saw fresh oysters!!! OMG!!! It was one of the best oysters that I have tried so far. It was too good~~~~~~ it cost me 1 pound per oysters but I think it is still consider reasonable compare to those backhome. Oishiiiii!!!!!
I also tried Paella. The last time I had Paella is I was in Barcelona 4 years ago. Oh, it still taste so good. It was a little different from I had eaten in Barcelona. This one, they put sausages inside. Sadly, Amr cannot have it. But it was good.
We bought our food and sat on the green. Like having picnic and sun bath. Following the western way. Hahaha......
It was a memorable day as I can have good day, good food and good company!!!

Sunny day with people!!!

Ice-cream time with Wayne....mine is honey!! is good!!!!!

Nice sky~

Lying on the grass

David sleeping on the grass

The food that we bought!!!

Amr and David enjoying the oysters!

Very delicious Paella!!!!!

Nice cakes!!!

Forcing them to buy me the apple juice... hahah....

How I wish everyday is good food day..... hahahahhaha!!!!!!
Ooops!!! I am suppose to be on diet!!!!

Dun kill the Innocent!!!

2009-04-20T12:06:00.000-07:00

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and I cannot stop laughing.

Threating others well?

2009-04-18T10:14:00.000-07:00

I found out I cannot see people making fool of other people. Or like trying to provoke people.
For example, when someone fall down, instead of helping the person, you laugh at that person and say "sorry, are you alright?(with laughing intonation)". I don't think is funny lor. It sounds like you are not sincerely concerning about the person although you are asking the person is he or she alright. I found out that was kinda mean.
I also cannot stand when people say, let's piss him off. Later, trying to say all sort of things and do all kind of stuff to make the person angry. I do not see the point of doing that lo.
Also, I do not make fun or call person in another name. I think is kinda rude to do so. Like my cousin brother used to call me "fan shu" meaning sweet potato. Or my uncle used to call me "big ass". Here, people call me Mom and threat me as one. Actually, I do not like it that way. I am Angeline. You can call me Angie. Maybe I am a little old in my group, what I see now in class or outside class is a bunch of 13-16 year old kids fooling around. Haiz!!! when they can grow up????
WHEN???

What will you do?

2009-04-10T16:20:00.000-07:00

What will you do if an dirty old man approached you and said: 'Excuse me beautiful, do you have some small change, I just come out of the prison."

What I did was "...............!!!!!!!!!" (stunned and speechless) and runaway. I know he mean no harm but I was terrified. Ooops!

I am back!( back to Exeter la)

2009-04-08T17:43:00.000-07:00

Adieu to my parents yesterday and went back to Exeter. The journey took me almost 4 hours. Gosh.... kill me for good.

Rome was BEAUTIFUL! It is a historical city with all ancient buildings. U need not be a good photographer to take beautiful pictures because the scenery and the view are already pretty! Pictures will be upload soon due the pics is with bro's camera. Actually, we stayed in Rome for only 3 days but it was more than enough for the city itself. Manage to go to the places that I want to like Trivia Fountain, Colessuem,Vatican City. Speaking of that, Vatican city looks different that I thought. I thought there must have a lot of prosedures to get in. Very holy, cannot talk and take photos. Well, apparently it turned out different thatn I thought. U know, in MI3, Tom Cruise had to climb walls,hacked the CCTV to get in. We, my family and I with umhundreds tourists just walk in. There do not have like gate or something to enter St.Peter's square. Just walk in. Jalan terus sahaja!

We stayed in a B&B near Termini station. Oh god, this was the first time and 5 of us stayed in one room. duble decker and all single beds. This the most unluxury accomodation that we had stayed so far. But, it was a good experience. Another "good" experience was

that we slept in the airport like homeless people. Hahaa. We had an early flight back to London is 6.10am. Unfortunately, the last bus to the airport is 12am. So, we thought of going there early to hang around the airport while waiting for departure. When we reached there, oh god! the departure hall was closed!!!! So all of us were outside waiting in the cold with some other people. Luckily, someone told us that the arrival was opened so everyone rushed in the hall. Although is not very comfortable inside, we managed to sleep like no body business especially ME!!! muahhahah.

Some pics from Rome. (very little, most of them are with bro)

Back to London, what we do the most was shopping. hahhaa...
We watched a musical drama, Joseph and the colourful techinicoat, something like that.....starring Gareth Gates... hahaha. He was not as good as I expected.
Meet up with some college friends for Malaysian cuisine in Paddington. Oh, I missed my milo ais!!! get to meet up with Danu, Farah and G whom I have not meet time for some time.Missing them dearly. I like the gathering because it felt like back in college in dining hall. haha.... the way of arrangement.

Aunty Jane brought us to a social. Dressed up pretty and talk and talk and talk that kind.Boring.... well, we escaped the social by going to watcha film. Monster vs Alien. It's in 3D. Something new for me but I cannot really enjoy it cuz the specs was hurting me. Anyway, it was a nice movie and I love Dr Crokcroach Phd.( voiced by Hugh Laurie)

Mom gave me my 21st birthday present 2 months before my birthday and I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!! IS.......

I am not going to show you all what's inside. You have to guess... hahha.... is beautiful!!!!

Hitomi also bought me something from Paris. A small pendant! Cute!!!! NOt showing too! hahaha..........

Of course not forgetting to show the things that I bought in London and Rome!

Colleseum.

All my clothes and stuff I bought.... hahahhahahaa

HAppy Family!!!!!!

Busy part is over!!!

2009-03-27T05:24:00.001-07:00

hahhaa!!!!! is the last day of the term and I am done with all my stuffs. Too much parties this week.

4 hours later, I will go to London to meet my beloved... hahaha

but guess what I have not pack anything yet....

decided to send my laptop back to Malaysia and I bought a MAC.... basic one!!!

dun ask me why not alu..... cuz answer is "unaffordable" that all!

exam's done BUT will have assignments ahead during the break....

Awaiting for Rome and London... hahahahah!!!!! of course the most crucial one is my families!!! muahahhahhahah!!!!!!!!!!

Till then I shall be back with more updates!

Too much!

2009-03-09T06:23:00.000-07:00

Too much of homework: report, assesmentssssssss.........
Too much to worry: my laptop, Rome, London, my face, my health, my weight, bank etc.
Too much to care: Friends, "nanny"
Too much to keep: feelings and tiredness
Too much to miss: my family and friends back home
Too much to think: my choices for future

This is a full of grammatical error post. Don't care!
Brain cannot function well these times.

3 weeks to go to meet my beloved!

Drunk!

2009-02-28T19:27:00.000-08:00

Undeniably, when students get into University, life changes drasticly. With no parents consent and also legal to drink and smoke, people tense to get very F**ked up paritcularly to those who don't really care about grades.

Yes, I am here talking some very dramatic scene that happen around me. Especially, I have a girl friend who is pretty, leads to more of this "university stuffs" happen.hahaha.....

well, cut off the crap of drinking and smoking among girls and guys, the frustating part is the things they did after they got drunk. Oh god, is killing me. I have experience about this so I know how disgusting it was. bleh........For instance in this case, I was not even involved in but was called in the middle of the night to rescue and help to settle things out. Hahaha.... like I am sort of the "big mama" to solve problem. Vomitting is normal after drinking but please, vomit in the sink or the toilet but on the floor la. Somemore our floor is carpeted, very hard to clean up man!!! Then, loud sound and kicking things. If you are not the resident of the place, please keep the voice low and shut your mouth la! If you are not a good drinker than don't drink so much. finish the whole bottle of 40% vodka within 30 min and really make someone crazy. Stripping and yelling was the worst part. This lead to disturbing people part. Knocking on doors and shouting was the worst of all...... haiz!!!! life life life....... student life.... bleh bleh bleh..........

Luckily, they listened to me and left the place. But, it still take me some skills and time to persuade this bunch of drunken people. I don't see the point of drinking too much and then was sent to the hospital. Gosh!!!! oh ya.... one of them hit the head on the edge and bleed.... also emit to hospital. What the point le???!!!!

Next day, they came to apologise but they said they cannot remember anything. See? being drunk is so bad. They even thought that I drank with them! Hello??!!!!! I was enjoying my sleep and you are those who came to disturb my friend until she have to ask me for help!!!!!!
So funny.....

Well....C'est la vie!!! I have once again gain some life experience!!!!!

I just want some sleep!

2009-02-26T18:36:00.000-08:00

As I am having my bestest time of my day(sleeping), these Bristish drunk people sang outside my room!!!!! Help me~~~~~

Oopps!!!!

2009-02-22T02:21:00.000-08:00

I missed my Friends and thus, I called them and did not realise that I actually freaked Jing En out!!!! She is as usual busy to talk to........ Argh!!!!!! Missing home already!!!!! Envying Miss Glenna to the Max as she was back home last weekend........

Random as usual!

2009-02-17T10:43:00.000-08:00

My life is just hectic.... well, I make it hectic anyway. Occupied myself with activities.... homeworks, travelling, reading, playing, eating, talking etc. Randomly just post up some pics to let you know the latest update.

This is my latest phone. Nokia 5880. Some people might ask... why not I-phone. I think is overated and also i dun like iphone. Dun ask me why.... I just dun like it!!!!!

Amr... came to visit me when I hurt my back!!! so nice of him!!!!

Went to LOndon during Valentines and saw this event hold in Trafalgar Square. Too bad I did not witness the event... because it took too long to gather the couples.Bought a Leather jacket from Kookai and some skin care. First time went into Gucci and all branded shops to choose stuff. Of course I cannot afford a single thing there but my friends just spent like 1K pounds there. From Gucci to Prada, then Tods to Chanel, Omega to G. Armani. They shop like crazy. And I just enjoying myself to help them to take some light shopping bags. To show that I can afford those products and In fact none of them are mine. hahahahah!!!!!Oh ya, also went to Abercrombie and Fitch to take photos with Hot guys!!!! hahahah..... so hot~~~~~

Met a new Chinese guy today and he totally cannot speak English. He is Hitomi's flatmates. Hitomi cannot converse with him. She called me and ask for help.... just to let this Chinese guy knows the regulations of the flat. Oh god.... is so terrible..... he cannot even understand "Saturday" Help me~~~~~~

Tomorrow is UCAS Application... wish me luck!

Sometimes is just like high school.

2009-02-10T13:37:00.000-08:00

Am I in University? Why some of my friends acting like high school student? So childish??

OMG!!!!

The nicer pics of the Snow in Exeter!

2009-02-03T13:13:00.000-08:00

Joel is a good photographer.... He takes good pictures. So, I steal some of the photos he took during these 2 snowing days!!!!!

yayaya~~~it's snowing!!!

2009-02-02T15:53:00.000-08:00

Snowing la~~~

The whole UK is snowing now. I did not expect Exeter to snow that heavy. According to weather forecast, it should have light snow and it turned out quite heavy this afternoon. The locals told me it was the heaviest since 20 years ago. Well, cannot underestimate global warming. It might turn out to be a disaster. Careful y'all. Tomorrow is expected to have even heavier snow!

I hardly can imagine how London and other cities looks like. Exeter is consider at the very south part of UK and yet it snowed so heavily! Perhaps London, Surrey is all softy white now!

No train to London too!

Like a little girl, I was so excited when I see snow. This was my very first snow. I was so excited to see snow. I still remember Ren Ee's had a post about snow one year ago and now, I am experiencing it. Wow.... feel so fresh and so new for me.

I have only one class today. So after class, I went to ask information about my phone. When we walked there, the sky is still fine and shiny. Yes, sunny day. After I got all the information that I wanted, it snowed! Heavy snow! Like this.

I told my friends that I looked like dumpling today because white outside and inside stuffed with loads of fillings and I wore 4 clothes inside with cashmere somemore. Well prepared for the snow!!!!

Of course the snowing day will not be complete without snow fighting and snowman. Check my facebook for more pics!

Have my first experience of snow!!!! I like it now and I think I will hate it tomorrow!!!! It is so slippery and cold!!!! hahhahaha..........

haha....

2009-01-29T13:50:00.000-08:00

Do you know I have to start studyng Economics all over again? Starting from Scarcity blah blah blah...... but this time I am studying with Prison Break screening on my computer. Hahaa~~~~~

Mom will shake her head again! haha!

Missin'

2009-01-26T06:25:00.000-08:00

etc etc etc with no pictures but still missin'

I miss all of you!!!!!! I do, really do!

It's the 3rd week in Exeter. Nothing much happen but only lectures and gatherings here and there. Sometimes, I am just being tired to be the person who talks. Sometimes, I just wanna be quiet for a while. But due to the people here who doesn't really know me much, tends to ask me some very idiotic question like, "why u dun speak? are u sick? when u do not talk, U just like a dead person!"

Alright, that is not very nice~

When I say I want to study or do homework, some of them even said "hey, dun try to act that you are hardworking, I know u are not." Hello??? how long have you know me???

Sometimes, I need to hide from myself from the real me just to able to join in the group. Sometimes, I have to act like I am so interested in the certain topic just not to try to spoil the atmosphere.

Sometimes, can be torturing! and that's why I keep quiet.

Some high school gossips happen here and I just cannot stand it. It is so childish and yet they can make up a big fuss.

I know I should not judge people here now as I am still new for them and vice versa.

I did not blame them and I shouldnt

that's why i just release unsatisfaction here.

Tomorrow, I will still be the talkative me.

Friends, I just hope I can talk to you!!!! Missing all of you dearly!

ps: I want to be treated as a lady, not a joker.

Exeter the UnExpected!

2009-01-12T14:34:00.000-08:00

I fall in love with the city and the university.

It is just the kind of Uni that I would have thought when I was younger.

People are walking or cycling to school. The campus is so big and they have everything inside. Book shop, shopping centre, cafes, bars, restaurants, theatre and night clubs.

University is really big and it takes time to walk from one place to another. Of course not as BIG as London universities that scattered all around the city but is huge campus.

Everyday I have to walk 20 mins to Uni.

Sometimes if I feel like going to city center, that is another 20 min from accomodation.

15 min of walk is actually nothing but Exeter is a city in the valley and the university is just on top of the hill...... hahahha..... and THAT is the killing part!

I have blisters on my feet not the back heel part but on my toes.

First time I had it on me, and I think I do not have a proper walking shoes which is causing that blisters.

So, I bought 3 pairs of shoes in one go!!!

A pair of boots

A pair of Nike sport shoes.

A pair of Adidas Sneakers.

All together 72 pounds! ~hey big spender~

I love the University Library, It opens 24 hours, 7 days per week. I just can go to the library whenever I want. The problem is that who willing to accompany me to go all the way to library to study??? haha.... no one and I guess I have to stay in my room to study......

Exeter town is just a small one but have everything that I need. From groceries like M&S, Sainsbury to Topshop, Jack Wills, we have it all in High street. Not too bad. It is definitely not as hustle bustle as in London but is ample to me. The most of all, I like it. I just like the English feel. There is a cafe in the Cathedral and the scones there taste so good. 1 pound each. Not too bad anyway. Food is good for me. I always eat good food. Food here are not expensive. You can have a traditional English breakfast with sausages, bacon and stuff in less than 3pounds.

is just like eating in KL standard. Is not too expensive!

First week was actually nothing much as u all might have know it. Weekends was just crazy.We had crazy nights on last Friday and Saturday though. Friday night was Sushi night as one of the Japanese friends is making us Sushi. It is not in my flat. It's in Campus. So, Hitomi, Taek and I walk all away there to join the International event. We have Japanese, Malaysians, Nigerians, Spanish, Switzerland,Russians, Italian, Korean, Indonesian and later come a few guys and I forget where are they from. The night was splendid and saw the guys get drunk is always a funny thing to look at! Crazy acts are all over the place. U might have notice the pictures in facebook.

Saturday night, we plan to go clubbing. So the dinner was prepared by pretty Laura from Spain. She cooked us dinner. The food was marvellous!!!! Good Spanish homedishes.... we enjoy ourselves! We had a huge discussion about Hitler on the night. Phew, almost had a fight that Ahmen like Hitler.... ahahhahhahaa...... Later the night, we went clubbing, Arena club and I just can say there are so many things to see when going to clubbing in UK. There was a freak old man keep on staring at Jimmy and later went up to him and said " I love you". I was laughing all the way.Hahahahaah.......

Entrance fee was 6 pounds and the guys pay for my drink. What I can say on that night was, I was the only one who has the body covered up the most. Hahahaha......LAdies there are piping hot! and so little clothes. I wonder did they feel cold or something???

The club closed at 2.30am and Kevin walked me home. So nice of him!!!!

On Sunday, I have to cook for "my kids". I made soup, fried beef with onions and stir fried Lamb liver. Imagine lamb liver? I didn't know how to cook it. It stinks so badly but Hitomi loves it. She enjoys every pieces of it. I just ate 1 and that's all for me! We had lovely lunch with 6 dishes and 1 soup! but only 6 of us!!!! hahaha.....The cola chicken which made by Monica was absolutely perfect. So tasty, I have to learn that recipe! Later on, we went shopping again! Hhaha.... that's when I got my shoes!!!

Hectic First week and that's about all from me.

Have to concentrate on studying now!

All my friends, We work hard together ya!!!!!

Miss ya and love ya loads!!!!

Greetings from Exeter,

Angeline

Exeter First Post

2009-01-11T12:04:00.000-08:00

I Suppose to blog about my first week in Exeter.
But, I was just too busy, too busy having fun until when I reach room I do not have the energy to continue to blog everything!
Will update all soon!

the day has come!~

2009-01-03T14:17:00.001-08:00

After deteriorating for so many months, it's time for me to pick up the pace and continue the journey as a student.

Tomorrow I will be leaving for Uni and to tell the truth, I am actually quite nervous about it. 10 times more nervous compared to college 2 years ago. Maybe is a different country. NOt maybe is exactly. Haha!!! No one in my college goes to the Uni that I am going. Good also. So that I can be new me again!!

Will off to Exeter early morning. Bon voyage!!!!

Next post will be in Exeter!

New year, new resolution!

2009-01-01T11:23:00.000-08:00

Today is new year. It's time to have an evaluation on what I have done last year!
There are so many ups and down this year. Is really and emotional year.
I cannot really remember everything that was happen last year but I try my best to recall. All the good and the bad.

Major issues that bothers me last year,
1) My grandfather passed away.
2) I cannot get into the uni that I want.
both incidents happen on the same month which is on the August and happened so close.

Other than that, all are just happy things. Which is good I guess in some way just to compensate the bad ones. Did a lot of crazy stuffs. Breaking rules is always something nice to keep in mind forever. Like jumping in swimming pool doing???? U know what.... haha

of course not forgetting I traveled a lot this year. From near like Genting with friends, to Langkawi then to Hong Kong and later to Bangkok and now London. Wow!!!! I just flying around.

New Year must have new resolution. Of course, the very first thing is to get my studies in excellence performance.Second, I want to be a better person. Cut down emo, sensitive, selfish, rude,Lazyness, procrastination and all bad habits!!!! oh ya!! My weight also.

No more daddy's and mummy's little girl. I have to be on my own in this foreign land. I am sure I can do it lo!!!!

Happy New Year!

2009-01-01T07:01:00.000-08:00

This is the very first post of my blog at 2009. Happy New Year to all.
Is the first day of the new year and guess what I have been doing?
Staying at my friend's penthouse and watch japanese drama. Not bad huh?
Yesterday was a "wonderful" night as I had experienced my first ourside country countdown and the first time in London and also first time countdown alone. Not really alone because there are like thousands people in the place but alone in the sense that I was not with any persons or people that I am familiar with. Haha.... sounds cool??? Not at all!!!!

I thought I can spend sometime with collegemates and due to the ridiculously crowd that flooded London city, there is no way that they can come and meet me. Well, is really insane over here. They can't meet me and my other friends already went to other side of the river. There is no way that I can go home due to the crowd and what I did, I stood among the crowd and stay there for fireworks.
Actually I did cry, haha.... because I was really freak out. When buddy said he cannot come, my heart just dropped and fear just came. I should not be so emotional I guessed but I cannot help it. Tears already falling on both cheeks. I saw drunk people, crazy people, horny people, and gosh there were some fights now and then. I am not trying to gain sympathy or whatsoever but a girl, chinese, alone in such big crowd with many crazy people, it is really DANGEROUS!!!!! U can't blame me for dropping tears off now and then! Gosh!!! that feelings is really bad. Maybe you all will think that is no big deal, but for me, it is really scary!!!!! I mean really scary.
The worst part of all is when I heard sounds of breaking glasses or bottles. That's really freaks me to the max!!!! I am so afraid people throw them on me, or get a fight with it! The second worst part was, the phone cannot get through. I cannot call to anyone. The line is so busy.
oh ya!!! got a kiss on the cheek from someone I don't know.
Saw some guys touching on girls boobs and humps.
Saw girls and guys stripping on top of a telephone booth.
Got tease by the policeman.
Was invited to try on a cigarette from someone behind.

IT IS DEFINITELY CRAZY!!!!

When I get to see my friends, I burst out again. I don't know why. It is not a relief feeling but a kind of release of fears and worries. I don't know how to express. Sweethearts, can u understand the feeling? Ren? Lu? Jing? Bell? Hui? Kat?U all understand or not?? When Glenna called my name, I saw them then turn over nangis. Such a emo girl I am. I couldn't help. Sorry bout that.

To buddy, luq, kevin, syaz,(i doubt they see this) glenna,

Hey guys so sorry bout everything that made you all walk so long just to see me talking non stop and complaining all time.and also all the manja and merajuk. Deepest apology.

I don't know whether mom will read this. She will be freaking out also that I was alone all time.

Mom, so sorry again. I promise from today onwards, I will not go anyway alone. Never!!!! I will get someone to company. I don't want to be that independant anymore. I don't want to have the loneliness in me anymore. I usually have families for backup and now I don't have any!!!

so~~~ new year resolution. Get a boyfriend!!!! ahahahhahahahahaha..... kidding!!!!

okay end of story, and that's how I spenｔ new year.

London First Post!

2008-12-23T11:12:00.000-08:00

Hey all, I am here in London for the third day. Everything went smoothly during arrivals.Although got detention for health control, nothing much. Just to show some medical reports, that's all. Szu Mun came and brought her friend along. So, I have people to take luaggage for me! haha....So bahagia. Bought an Oyster card and take the tube all the way to Cockfoster. It just cost me 2 pounds. Although is RM11.00, this is consider cheap.The journey is about an hour. okla.... Haha......
Then, I get into my aunty's place and have a good night rest!

This is my aunty house!

On Sunday, Aunty Jane's friends come for lunch. According to her, the lunch is specially made for me. Alright, she is introducing me to the family, particularly to the teenage guy, Alexander.

He's french. Well, actually half-french. His dad is a french. The lunch was not that bad because I had not talk to him much, in fact, I talked a lot with his younger brother,Emmanuel. Hahahaha!!!!! I always love young boys. Wait! He is younger than me, I mean Alex.... hahha.... one year younger. I am so old..... NO~~~~~~

The next day, which was Monday. Cecilia ( Alex's mom) come and fetch us ( me & Alex) out for a london short trip. OMG!!!! This is the most boring hangs out that I have encounter. I consider last time in KL was bad, this is 10X worst than that. Although I told many people about the trip, I still can help to say that IT IS SO BOOOOOOOOOOORING!!!!! Imagine, you are talking to a machine which only answer the question that you ask. Okay okay, maybe its my problem though. I don't know. But it is torturing. It's really feels like I am bringing a younger brother out town. His favourite moment of all is playing House of Death I guess. He also seems no interest to bring me out also. I guess we both are just following what the adults say. Bad day.

One thing that cheers me up is, I got to meet up with Shun Wei. The short meet enlighted my day and did pull me out from the sea of boredom. It's short, but enough to make my lips lifted up.

London

Ladies and Gentlemen, this is Alex.

And what I do today? NOTHING!

I stayed at home, online, watch TV, play guitar hero and babysitted two boys who plays the computer the whole day. Hahaha..... "zhang nu" in london.... not bad!!!! hahahhaha

The 2 kids who are computer games freak. One of the laptop is mine though!

Tomorrow, I am going to London city to meet my friends!!! HAhaha!!! can't wait.... I am so excited! yeah!!!!! In case I am not in time, I here wish you all Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!! Enjoy yourselves!!!!!

Greetings from London,

Angeline

GAtherings

2008-12-17T08:20:00.000-08:00

I just came back from a farewell gathering with my good friends. Is A short one but I do appreciate their presence. As usual we talk and talk and talk non stop. With Yian around, there sure has much things to laught with. This will be the last time I see them before I leave to UK. Well, Perhaps we will meet a year later. Wonder how we will look like after a year??

Must be very beautiful. Haha.... my friends now all do look gorgeous!!! I mean it! Is true!!!!

I am so gonna miss them after my departure.

Actually I am waiting for facebook to load my pictures right now. And it takes like forever to load it. I think I'm gonna to give up tonight and try some other day. Tomorrow perhaps? I think I just better load them here easier.

I haven really finish packing and I am going to leave in 2 more days

I am so not prepared for everything. Is like there are so many things to be done yet I have not done any. Haha.....

Went to do some last min shopping today. But actually is a date with yian though. We went to watch Twilight. Hahaha..... the movie is so cliche..... expected is gonna end this way and how the story lines goes on. I am not really a big fan of the Edward, he is so scary... hahha...... I am more keen to Jasper though. Oh ya!!!! His birthday is this Sunday!!!!(see I got checked him). NOt a really nice movie..... okla.... like me---movie idiot. This is consider okay.

We met Shanti in Jusco, have a couple of small talks and huggies, we end up with a picture and goodbyes. She is as usual pretty and cutie. Wow!!! her Chanel diamond necklace caught my attention!!! hehe......We also saw Yi Hui and Miki dating. Me and Yian even took their pictures. Haha.... nothing to do and we did follow them for some distance and none of them notice us or me and I wore a bright yellow shirt.

Is a tiring day but a memorable one. Lu even present me a winter cap which I LOVE IT SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. And she even push off the 6th form trip just to join me for a dinner. OMG.... I am really really touch. *tears dropping off*

Hope everything goes well and all the best to ya my friends, my sweethearts!!!!!

Our dinner at Breeze cafe!

Another one with Flash!

The Loving couple~Bell and Gavin!

Me and my forever sweetheart, Lu~

Me and my darling, Yian... Kesian her bf not around!

Lat but not least, the cutiecouple of Miki and Minnie... oops I mean Yi hui!!!! ( She is gonna kill me very soon!!!)

Oh yeah!!!! I took some very ugly pics in Yian camera.... hahha... that shoulod not be enclose.... If I found out is in either facebook or any other parts. She is gonna die!!! Muahahahahahahaha....

-Yian, U better see this. Don't say I did not warn you!- Muahahahaha

my 100th post!!!!

2008-12-11T00:18:00.000-08:00

In this memorable moment, I should share with my husband. Too bad I cannot have the album before I leave.... sad sad......

Why I love all his songs????
so nice le~~~

New stuffs.....

2008-12-10T01:11:00.000-08:00

I make this short.... haha... just to show you all my new stuffs. Although I bought a lot but i just choose to show 3 only lar.....I din not take the photos of the others... haha.....
-My laptop
-My camera
-My Monopoly This is the "Bank". I love this because it does not use cash.... all credit cards. And this card's credit is 15 million! Can put 2 cards along then the can do credit transfer! I like this one because I hate using cash because my maths not good and the paper is hard to count!
I cannot find this in Ipoh. I bought this in Pavillion. Not cheap oh!!!!!

I love my new stuffs....

Get me outta here!!!!

2008-12-06T01:56:00.000-08:00

I am now stuck in my parent's office.

Why I am here?

Because my mom wants me to be here.

For what?

just to accompany her

Then?

I have nothing to do.

So?

I blogging here!

Conclusion?

This is so LAME!

hahaha....

I got my visa already.... lalalalala~~~~
Bought some new stuffs, shall show u all later....

p/s: I know this post is such lame one... hahhaha....can't help I am too boring here!!!!!
oh ya.... Glenna says I am the cutest 2o something ever!!!! hahahaha.....

faster....

2008-12-02T00:27:00.001-08:00

I waited a month and I hope is alright.......
time, please fly fast......
I 've been worrying for so long.......
Please give me my answer.....
I can't wait till this Friday!