Writen during emo time~(forget how long was it)

Sometimes I just wish my life can be so much more difficult. Then, it will let me learnt to be more independent and to be more appreciate the things that I have right now.At the age of 22, I can say that I haven’t been through hardship. Things have been easy for me all these time and caused me not to strike hard for anything. I am so regret for what I have done. I really wish there is a time machine, I will turn back into time where I will drop off all unneccassary stuffs and to do the right thing.

As a student, I did not fullfill my job because I take things too easy. I did not pay full attention in class and did not study hard enough to meet the grades that I should have. I did not humble enough to ask questions. I did not willing to learn and most of all I am not hardworking at all to study.

As a daughter, I was not caring enough to my family. I was too naïve to believe that things will lead the way as time goes by. I was not strong enough to face all the problems that happen in the family. I was disobedient to my elders. I was ignorant to household things.

As a sister, I was not a good example to my brother. I was too strict towards him. I was a big bullier and did not care how my brother progression in life and studies. I was too selfish to my brother and only know how to make use of him.

As a friend, I was not as sincere. Some friends , I did not even take the initiative to contact them. I found I was too fake. I am good at making friends but not good at maintaining relationships.

I guess I am nothing afterall. BUT, I will change. From this moment, I want to be a better person, a better daughter, sister, student and friend. I know it is not going to be easy, but I will do my very very best. I am not satisfied with what I am now, character and personality wise.Give me sometime, I want to be a better person!

p/s: I must be very down at the time I wrote this post....

Hi Blog,

Hello feelings, sorry to abandon you for such a long time.
I have been busy... like seriously. Another more acceptable excuse is that I am very lazy to tell you my life.
In short, I am doing just fine. Mom finally going to chemotherapy, I guess I have to leave you for sometime again.

Meanwhile, I will continue to live life to fullest!